A long time on the road of life.
Hello. It has been some time, hasn't it. Where to start..... well i guess a recap would be good. The last times i wrote in this journal, heartbreaking things were happening in my life. I lost my best friend Joe Butler to cancer. Later, my grandfather also left this life to join the Ancestors. My heart still aches at their loss. It was about that time i withdrew from almost everyone in my life. I couldn't deal with the pain of living and i needed some time to find out who I was going to be for the rest of my life. I lost many of my friends and drove my friends and family from me in self destructive bouts of depression.
during these last couple of years, i was a really angry person. There was so much hate and pain inside me i lashed out at the world when it ventured into my comfortable armor that i had built around myself. then an old friend introduced me to Jennifer Van Der Wal. Jenn i love you so much, thank you for being so patient with me. I know i can but a stubborn ass sometimes, but your loving kindness and compassion saved my life. No matter where you go sister, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jenn taught me to let go of all the burdens and baggage weighing me down. she taught me to be bold and confident again, something i lost years ago in Lansing. She helped me remember that this life im living is a series of choices, and that i had to choose what i was going to do with my life. Together we gathered together many people who were also broken. We found a family in people who were like us from all walks of life. I studied Quechua shamanism, with Gurus, and mystics of all kinds. I learned to shut up and actually listen to the world around me in a way i never had before. I learned that i had a great deal of growing up to do. I'm still in the process of that.
Matti Ikonen, Jenn, my cousin Jenny, Scotto, Jessetron, Oz, Courtney, Adrian, Hill a beans, Wessistopheles, Rory, Rita, Chucka, Mar, TOM TOM and all of you who have been with me on my journey: thank you for being so amazing. My life has evolved because of all of you. I have been a reflection of each and every one of you. Thank you for helping me grow. Thank you for challenging me to be a better person.
I am writing again. I am taking up my music. I am gathering for all new adventures in crazy places as they come. I am collecting stories to be told here, and finally i am living my life with joy. Thank you for the magic and the secrets in the hidden places.
~Joe Joe out
during these last couple of years, i was a really angry person. There was so much hate and pain inside me i lashed out at the world when it ventured into my comfortable armor that i had built around myself. then an old friend introduced me to Jennifer Van Der Wal. Jenn i love you so much, thank you for being so patient with me. I know i can but a stubborn ass sometimes, but your loving kindness and compassion saved my life. No matter where you go sister, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Jenn taught me to let go of all the burdens and baggage weighing me down. she taught me to be bold and confident again, something i lost years ago in Lansing. She helped me remember that this life im living is a series of choices, and that i had to choose what i was going to do with my life. Together we gathered together many people who were also broken. We found a family in people who were like us from all walks of life. I studied Quechua shamanism, with Gurus, and mystics of all kinds. I learned to shut up and actually listen to the world around me in a way i never had before. I learned that i had a great deal of growing up to do. I'm still in the process of that.
Matti Ikonen, Jenn, my cousin Jenny, Scotto, Jessetron, Oz, Courtney, Adrian, Hill a beans, Wessistopheles, Rory, Rita, Chucka, Mar, TOM TOM and all of you who have been with me on my journey: thank you for being so amazing. My life has evolved because of all of you. I have been a reflection of each and every one of you. Thank you for helping me grow. Thank you for challenging me to be a better person.
I am writing again. I am taking up my music. I am gathering for all new adventures in crazy places as they come. I am collecting stories to be told here, and finally i am living my life with joy. Thank you for the magic and the secrets in the hidden places.
~Joe Joe out