Back from Cuba
So over the past few weeks, I've had a rollercoaster ride. I gave my life to Christ, and I decided that I no longer need Melanie in my life anymore. I hope and pray that she one day sees the light. Then one day in Cuba, when I was thinking about a lot of stuff, I came to this thought: the reason that I was truly pissed off about a girl that I liked that was now going out with some other guy was because I wanted to be that guy myself; I wanted to be the guy that made that special someone happy. Now I do forgive those that hurt my feelings---though they don't realize it---and I've gotten over most of them. However, Melanie is the only one that still has my attention (see previous entry). The fact of the matter is that no matter who she goes out with, I still won't approve of the relationship. I could care less who the guy is. I want to be the one that makes her happy. Yes, I will forgive you for hooking up with her, but I still will not like the relationship. She is the forbidden fruit of the garden. By the way, my heart still goes out for the loved ones of the boyfriend whom she lost last year.