Ooooh, lyrics.
This Ain't Goodbye
You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only two who understood this place
As far as we know
We were way before our time
As bold as we were blind
Just another perfect mistake
Another bridge to take
On the way to letting go
This ain't goodbye
This is just the way love goes
When words aren't warm enough
To keep away the cold
Oh no, this ain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends
But I know you can't be mine
Not the way you've always been
As long as we've got time
Then this ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye.
We were stars up in the sunlit sky
Where no one else could see
Neither of us thought to ever ask why
It wasn't meant to be
Maybe we were way too high
To ever understand
Maybe we were victims of all
All the foolish plans
We began to live out...
But this ain't goodbye
This is just the way love goes
When words aren't warm enough
To keep away the cold
Oh no, this ain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends
But I know you can't be mine
Not the way you've always been
As long as we've got time
Then this ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye.
You and I were friends from outer space
Afraid to let go
The only two who understood this place,
As far as we know...
This ain't goodbye
This is just the way love goes
When words aren't warm enough
To keep away the cold
Oh no, this ain't goodbye
It's not where our story ends
But I know you can't be mine
Not the way you've always been
As long as we've got time
Then this ain't goodbye
Oh no, this ain't goodbye.
Man. That grabbed me by the heart and twisted the first time I heard it. Had I been in an emotional mood, I'd've put my head on my desk and cried for a while. It speaks to a lot of what I went through a few months ago; not the gut-wrenching-emotional-train-wreck parts, but that awful, rocky, avalanche-prone climb toward accepting yet another loss and being able to look back and see the sad poetry in it instead of the anger and pain and defiance. I took an online wellness test when I signed up for my benefits with Starbucks, and it asked me a bunch of questions about life events in the past year: Have you experienced the death of a loved one? (Yes) Have you moved? (Yes) Have you lost a job? (Yes) Have you experienced the end of a relationship? (Yes) Has a close family member been hospitalized or had a medical emergency? (Yes)
I think the next question was whether or not I was seeking medical/psyciatric help for dealing with all of that, lol. With it laid out in a list with ticky boxes like that, I was actually surprised at how much I'd really gone through in a year. I think the computer was surprised too - at the end of the test it said, 'Check out our mood and stress management courses!' And it listed me as high-risk for stress- and mood-related health problems. Good times. Thankfully, I feel like I'm leaving most of that behind me.
Like I said on my Twitter last night, this is the first time in over a year that I've unpacked and put away my overnight bag. I think this means I'm home.
In other news, I want this song to play as I walk down the aisle if I have a public wedding, or at the reception if I elope:
Your lipstick stains
on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you
And so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moonbeam
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided
You're the one I have decided
Who's one of my kind
Hey soul sister, ain't that Mister Mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight.
Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction
A game show love connection, we can't deny
I'm so obsessed
My heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna
And I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind
Hey soul sister, ain't that Mister Mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight.
The way you can cut a rug
Watching you's the only drug I need
So gangster, I'm so thug
You're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see I can be myself now finally
In fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you'll be with me
Hey soul sister, ain't that Mister Mister on the radio, stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight...