And....I still haven't done it...and the Maddison oneshot
Well, le exames espanola manana.
Crap.
But during my time-wasting fanfic writing and random internet surfing revision, I decided to post a couple of my maddison drabbles that are over on FF.net.
You Never Knew
He used to watch her before she even knew his name. She sat at the front of Organic Chemistry with Eleanor Rivers and kept her bespectacled head down in the anatomy textbook. Her hand would be the first in the air to answer every question, seconded quickly by Derek. He would listen to her voice, rolling so easily off her tongue, as she answered everything: correctly. He watched Derek stiffen every time she usurped his position as the cleverest with a wild grin on his face.
She was at a party a couple of months into their first semester. She was sat with another girl, one with long, black, witchy hair, and with a couple of boys, blonde, muscular boys. He was talking to some girl, a little blonde with big brown eyes who he had picked out from the whole room as one who he would be able to get into bed later. But the flash of red every time she turned her head distracted him.
"Mark?" the girl asked, clinging onto his arm and smiling, "Are you ok?"
He tore his eyes away from her. He looked at his potential conquest of the evening and realised her name had evaded him.
"I...I don't feel well." he said, "I'm going to go and take a break."
And with that, he walked away, leaving the girl - Sofia, maybe? Sara? - to sink into a chair by herself, all hopes of getting laid evaporating. He kept his eyes trained on Addison as he walked to the door, and then stood outside for a while, taking deep breaths and wondering what had happened to him. He'd never even spoken to the chick from Organic Chemistry.
He realised with a jolt that this was the first time he had ever walked away from potential sex.
Something was very wrong.
Maybe
"If I had called you before Derek, would things have been different?"
She sighed. She didn't want to have this discussion right now.
"Mark, leave it, ok? Just leave it be!"
He sighed and put his head in his hands. "But we're in a mess here, Addison! We can't keep going on like this! I can't keep doing this to Derek!"
She looked at him scornfully. "Don't play the conscience card on me, Mark Sloane, you're a man whore and we both know it."
"But I don't do this to my best friend. Derek's like my brother, Addie, this isn't right! I'm not just going to continue screwing his girlfriend behind his back!"
"And what do you want me to do about it?"
"Tell him. Tell him what's been going on. Tell him you don't feel the same way about him anymore!"
Her eyes flashed. He shouldn't be able to read her this well. "What do you mean? I never said that!"
"Don't try to fool me, Addison. People who are happily in love don't do this!"
"I'm just...confused, Mark. I want this, I want it so much...but I do love Derek, and I love what we have, and I don't want to end it for the sake of an...affair."
The words were laced with disgust. At the two of them.
"This doesn't have to just be an affair, Addie! We could... after Derek's forgiven us..."
She smiled, and laughed bitterly. "What, Mark? Date?" she moved closer to him, so her lips were inches from his and he could feel her warm breath. "You and I couldn't date." she murmured, and placed a kiss on his lips, "We'd...we're bad for each other." Another kiss. "It's..." another kiss. "All about..." Kisses, trailing down his jaw, his neck. "This." she said definitely. "We'd drive each other crazy."
Mark tangled his hands in her hair, knowing this resolved nothing. "You drive me crazy." he said, before starting to kiss her back.
XXX
As they lay, sprawled out on Mark's bed, exhausted, he murmured: "You never answered my question, Addie. If I had called you first, would things have been different?"
She turned her head away so he couldn't see the tears of confusion and possibility.
"Maybe."
That's just two. I'm gonna post them in a community too. If you like them, I'll get more up.