Juicing Journey
Here I am, returning to my ever comforting hide-a-way journal. I have gotten away from journaling for so long and I feel that it leads to such better mental health for me.
I keep saying I should and will and then I get caught up in a million things....
Brief Life Synopsis:
- I am now 26 years old.
- I just moved back to Buffalo, NY (my place of birth) the beginning of April.
- I am living with Bobby, whom I formerly had feelings for but now view only as a friend
- I am still really struggling with my weight, and did well losing some for a while but am struggling again.
- I currently weigh 210 pounds. (UGH.)
- (Seeing that in writing makes it worse)
- I have been counting calories consistently for a month now and do not eat over 1300 calories a day.
- I have been going to the gym regularly now for 4 weeks.
- I have NOT lost any weight thus far.
- I still have my bum thyroid and am not currently seeking professional help for it as I feel they have let me down.
- I am unemployed.
- (This all does not need to be in bullet point, but I don't feel like being well structured right now.)
- I am looking for a job.
- I am looking to lose weight.
- I need to learn how to sleep like a human being and not a dysfunctional mutant.
I have declared the month of May to be my month. I will be kicking ass and taking names, no excuses.
I have purchased a juicer (it will arrive tomorrow) and I have been looking up juice recipes online. I am planning an intense JUICEFEST for the next bit as a way of shocking my system into weight loss/health mode and I think I need to take extreme measures, as counting calories and excercising alone is not working.
SO-- here are the rules/goals of my May Juicefest.
- Drink juice (preferrably homemade, non-sugary) every day and lots of water in place of meals
- No drinking alcohol
- Go to the gym 5 times a week
- Protein shakes are allowed after 8 days of initial cleanse.
- No coffee/caffine. Boo.
- You are allowed one cheat day for the whole month on which you may eat what you want and also can have alcohol. Use it wisely.
In addition to the juice-related goals, I have set other personal goals/structure for myself as well.
- Save money! No spending money on anything but food, gas and rent. (I mean it!)
- Apply to 10 jobs per week.
I need to reinstate structure into my life. I have gotten very far from where I once was and I need to regain control.
And also, I am going on a cruise to the Bahamas to celebrate my 27th birthday in September, and I refuse to look anything but absolutelyfuckingfantastic.
I gathered a lot of my information on juicing from this blog and I think that it is a smart way to go about it.
I know that I obsess over my weight, and if I weigh myself a lot and don't see results I get terribly discouraged. So I have laid out a weigh in calendar for myself:
May 15 -- First weigh in, 15 days into cleanse.
May 22 -- Second weigh in, one week after first weigh in, 22 days into cleanse.
May 31 -- Last weigh in, 31 full days of cleanse (minus the one cheat day).
I will be posting various juice recipes and my thoughts and feelings on it all. I think that knowing I have a sense of accountability here will enable me to persevere.
Confession: I just went to see "The Five Year Engagement" (which is great, btw) and I ate probably 15 twizzlers in leiu of this being my last "normal" day of food, hehe.
I am boxing up my "normal" food and making it off limits for myself. I am making a grocery shopping list of things to buy for myself to make my juices and am excited to go shopping for it.
That is that. Game on, Juice.
~Gretchen Joy