forEVER!
Well, it has been over a year...in fact over a year and a half. Long time no see. My life....crazy per usual. :) But good. Honestly good. :)
School: DONE with classes! Can't believe it's already been 5 years! Now onto slave labor - err, I mean rotations. So far they aren't terrible. Retail is tough. Never fun being the one that the pharmacists take their stress out on. Not fun at all - I wont be like that. I don't hate retail however...at first I was kind of liking it. The past few days have been nuts, so we'll see if that lasts. I'm a little overwhelmed by all the choices I have after graduation - it's so many things and I am very unsure of what I want to do. Residency, Am Care, Retail, Hospital...It seems that whatever job I am doing I like....I guess it will become clear sometime. Right now it is definitely not. Plus I feel ill prepared to be a pharmacist. I think I need to start reviewing and studying and trying to be knowledgeable and smart again. Ick, that makes my head kind of hurt. This weekend...I'll look at things.
Family: Papa retired. His health is not the best ever, but I'm hoping he will hunker down and get a little better. He had a procedure last week on his heart and all went well, so that's a plus. Mama is mama - her crazy, busy, healthy, loving, funny self. Mark is Mark - needs to stop painting so he can spend more time with my mom though! Grandparents - Paca isn't doing the best, Grandma is okay, but it's time for them to make some plans for the future.
Relations: Haha, that sounds funny, but I didn't know what word to use. The men (man..) in my life. Joe, my Joe. Hmm, it would be ideal if I could say that it's going awesome, but that's not quite the case. It is difficult to deal with distance and stress. I really really like him. I miss him a lot. It's hard to be far away when he's having stressful times. It's hard to not be with him at all in fact. And I've found that person where my happiness depends (to a certain degree) on their happiness. I think that is a good sign, right? And the fact that he wants to wait until he's in a good place for a relationship? I guess I'm just a little scared to really believe that someone can be that caring and kind to me. I think I deserve this, but I'm just a little bit in disbelief that I found it. He is an amazing person with the biggest heart ever. He never ever gets upset with me and he is very driven to be a productive person in society. He cares about so many important things and he's very educated and informed. I see all the things I want in a person with him. And I feel oh so comfortable with him. He's so patient and gentle. He's a guy in all the cute guy ways. Yet he understands and embraces that girls are girls. It's just...well, he's pretty damn near perfect. He does all the little things that remind me that he cares about me....and yet I'm not sure exactly how patient I can be - it is really pushing me. I guess I just need reassurance that I'm waiting for the same thing he is...especially if we're going to be waiting until the fall and possibly longer. *sigh* So many thoughts.
I'm tired of writing now. And thinking. More thinking actually. More later :) I'll try to keep better updated on my life.
School: DONE with classes! Can't believe it's already been 5 years! Now onto slave labor - err, I mean rotations. So far they aren't terrible. Retail is tough. Never fun being the one that the pharmacists take their stress out on. Not fun at all - I wont be like that. I don't hate retail however...at first I was kind of liking it. The past few days have been nuts, so we'll see if that lasts. I'm a little overwhelmed by all the choices I have after graduation - it's so many things and I am very unsure of what I want to do. Residency, Am Care, Retail, Hospital...It seems that whatever job I am doing I like....I guess it will become clear sometime. Right now it is definitely not. Plus I feel ill prepared to be a pharmacist. I think I need to start reviewing and studying and trying to be knowledgeable and smart again. Ick, that makes my head kind of hurt. This weekend...I'll look at things.
Family: Papa retired. His health is not the best ever, but I'm hoping he will hunker down and get a little better. He had a procedure last week on his heart and all went well, so that's a plus. Mama is mama - her crazy, busy, healthy, loving, funny self. Mark is Mark - needs to stop painting so he can spend more time with my mom though! Grandparents - Paca isn't doing the best, Grandma is okay, but it's time for them to make some plans for the future.
Relations: Haha, that sounds funny, but I didn't know what word to use. The men (man..) in my life. Joe, my Joe. Hmm, it would be ideal if I could say that it's going awesome, but that's not quite the case. It is difficult to deal with distance and stress. I really really like him. I miss him a lot. It's hard to be far away when he's having stressful times. It's hard to not be with him at all in fact. And I've found that person where my happiness depends (to a certain degree) on their happiness. I think that is a good sign, right? And the fact that he wants to wait until he's in a good place for a relationship? I guess I'm just a little scared to really believe that someone can be that caring and kind to me. I think I deserve this, but I'm just a little bit in disbelief that I found it. He is an amazing person with the biggest heart ever. He never ever gets upset with me and he is very driven to be a productive person in society. He cares about so many important things and he's very educated and informed. I see all the things I want in a person with him. And I feel oh so comfortable with him. He's so patient and gentle. He's a guy in all the cute guy ways. Yet he understands and embraces that girls are girls. It's just...well, he's pretty damn near perfect. He does all the little things that remind me that he cares about me....and yet I'm not sure exactly how patient I can be - it is really pushing me. I guess I just need reassurance that I'm waiting for the same thing he is...especially if we're going to be waiting until the fall and possibly longer. *sigh* So many thoughts.
I'm tired of writing now. And thinking. More thinking actually. More later :) I'll try to keep better updated on my life.