I am not more acceptable than then
Looking back is weird.
I was just going through an old journal I'd forgotten about from freshman year. My thoughts were, in some ways, so different, and yet so similar. In the words of U2, "I still haven't found what I'm looking for" :P. I wonder if I'll ever be truly happy, though? Even for just a bit? In retrospect things were much better then but I was still discontent. As the years progress, things only seem to get worse: back then I was just bored and lonely. Now I'pm overwhelmed...and lonely.
However, I can't help but smile while reading the following list (yes, I've always been fond of lists)
Things That Make My Currently Sucky Life a Bit Better
1. Learning how to take photos
2. Sleep
3. My friends at school
4. Luke and Lorelai are finally getting together on Gilmore Girls
5. The way I've repositioned my bed is comfy.
6. I'm gonna start a business (really!)
7. The cicadas aren't too scary, really.
8. Only 21 days until I'm 15.
9. A month 'til school is over (I know, completely contradictory to my hating summer).
10. A storm's coming.
11. He smiled at me today.
I've been feeling very bad both physically and mentally, lately. The Concerta had bad effects, so I'm on a new medicine as of today. Maybe it will work, maybe it won't.
I'll have a real update up, eventually.
I was just going through an old journal I'd forgotten about from freshman year. My thoughts were, in some ways, so different, and yet so similar. In the words of U2, "I still haven't found what I'm looking for" :P. I wonder if I'll ever be truly happy, though? Even for just a bit? In retrospect things were much better then but I was still discontent. As the years progress, things only seem to get worse: back then I was just bored and lonely. Now I'pm overwhelmed...and lonely.
However, I can't help but smile while reading the following list (yes, I've always been fond of lists)
Things That Make My Currently Sucky Life a Bit Better
1. Learning how to take photos
2. Sleep
3. My friends at school
4. Luke and Lorelai are finally getting together on Gilmore Girls
5. The way I've repositioned my bed is comfy.
6. I'm gonna start a business (really!)
7. The cicadas aren't too scary, really.
8. Only 21 days until I'm 15.
9. A month 'til school is over (I know, completely contradictory to my hating summer).
10. A storm's coming.
11. He smiled at me today.
I've been feeling very bad both physically and mentally, lately. The Concerta had bad effects, so I'm on a new medicine as of today. Maybe it will work, maybe it won't.
I'll have a real update up, eventually.