Thoughts
There has been a certain element of betrayal. I believe in karma enough to let things right themselves.
The full time work even as a temo kicks me out of unemployment. While I had been hoping to use this situation to elevate myself, I find things slighty worse. The temp job (meaning that there is a definite end) pays less than I was making at the car dealership and there are added expenses.
I had trouble using the industrial hole punch today. I have been alternating hands for such repeated activities and, in some cases favoring one or the other depending on the action needed. This is no way to live. The potential upcoming solutions also scare me. Almost wants me to become religious again and empty my savings and head to Lourdes. I could use a few miracles right about now.
I think that the biggest part of my problems is due to the fact that for the first time in my life (of at least what I can remember) is I don't know how to fix what is wrong. There are problems that can't be solved by hping online or reading a book. There is no easy answer.
And no one can fix things for me. The solution must come from somewhere in myself. And I have little idea where that is.
Faire was a disappointment...
The full time work even as a temo kicks me out of unemployment. While I had been hoping to use this situation to elevate myself, I find things slighty worse. The temp job (meaning that there is a definite end) pays less than I was making at the car dealership and there are added expenses.
I had trouble using the industrial hole punch today. I have been alternating hands for such repeated activities and, in some cases favoring one or the other depending on the action needed. This is no way to live. The potential upcoming solutions also scare me. Almost wants me to become religious again and empty my savings and head to Lourdes. I could use a few miracles right about now.
I think that the biggest part of my problems is due to the fact that for the first time in my life (of at least what I can remember) is I don't know how to fix what is wrong. There are problems that can't be solved by hping online or reading a book. There is no easy answer.
And no one can fix things for me. The solution must come from somewhere in myself. And I have little idea where that is.
Faire was a disappointment...