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so i dont get it. i have a boyfriend for a whlie, my roommate gets jealous and pretty much hates me, then she gets a boyfriend, and i be nice to her about it, because i'm not a jealous type, and she totally does the same thing... hangs out w/ him all day everyday... i just think its hypocritcal... right? ... her feelings that is. not the fact that she has a bf.. but the fact that she doesn't give a shit about how she treated me... gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
so i'm stressed out about my exams next week. i HAVE to do good on them, my future pretty much rests on that fact.
i'm lonly, i want a relationship, but i just cant seem to find the right dude. at all... either they are drunks or just not my type of guy... i dont know. everytime i get w/ my family, they are like putting the pressure on me to find a boy get married blah blah blah. whatever. well its dumb i know, but i can't wait to get married and have a family. and now is the time. i'm sick of the friends w/ benefits that i have, the random hookups that happen occasionally, i want a serious relationship. thats all i ask for... plan and simple
there is so much on my mind latley, its just ridiculous.
and you know... there is only a select few i feel comfortable talking to about it, and they seem to be 'caught up' in their own business... and i'm not the one to burdem someone about something.
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i'm just kinda frustrated at the moment.
an ex called me today, very random. not sure what i feel about that? possible could it rekindle anything, i'm not sure
i also miss john. man, i havn't talked to that kid in forever.... seroiulsy i called him on his bday in april, and he never called me back or anything... no word, maybe thats how its supposed to be but for some reason i can't get him out of my mind. ever.. will it ever go away?
so i'm stressed out about my exams next week. i HAVE to do good on them, my future pretty much rests on that fact.
i'm lonly, i want a relationship, but i just cant seem to find the right dude. at all... either they are drunks or just not my type of guy... i dont know. everytime i get w/ my family, they are like putting the pressure on me to find a boy get married blah blah blah. whatever. well its dumb i know, but i can't wait to get married and have a family. and now is the time. i'm sick of the friends w/ benefits that i have, the random hookups that happen occasionally, i want a serious relationship. thats all i ask for... plan and simple
there is so much on my mind latley, its just ridiculous.
and you know... there is only a select few i feel comfortable talking to about it, and they seem to be 'caught up' in their own business... and i'm not the one to burdem someone about something.
aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i'm just kinda frustrated at the moment.
an ex called me today, very random. not sure what i feel about that? possible could it rekindle anything, i'm not sure
i also miss john. man, i havn't talked to that kid in forever.... seroiulsy i called him on his bday in april, and he never called me back or anything... no word, maybe thats how its supposed to be but for some reason i can't get him out of my mind. ever.. will it ever go away?