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well... theres been alot going on. tom and i broke up. i dont like it. i want to be back w/ him. i thought it would be for hte best, but now that we are apart, i hate it. do who knows what will happen. i dont know if we will get back together or not. hopefully. anyways. i do miss a certain somebody too... gosh i just want the best of both worlds lately. hehe. i was supposed to go see john tonight, but that didnt happen, bc tara didnt feel good, so she couldnt work my shift. thats okay. maybe its a sign. who knows. todays my dads bday. i called him and talked to them for a while. its nice to have a good convo w/ your family. im schedule for a lot of hours latley. which is good dont get me wrong... but its like i want to beable to go see john and hang out w/ him, but taht wont happen if i can't get time off work. again.... best of both worlds no? lol. i really really really need to realize hopefully, that i think i was w/ tom for the wrong reasons. i dont know. i'm still way confused about that man. i dont know. anyways. i should get going. naptime.