Over/Under
This week was a little better. Maybe a lot better.
I interviewed two counselors, chose one, and have an appointment set up this coming week.
I picked up Tucker in PG and we had a mini-vacation there.
One of the big sensitive projects at work is over, and I can begin to work on the rest of them. The end of the year is in sight.
I am considering other job options and maybe other locations.
Animals all seem good, and I've scaled back my planned projects, so I think all farm stuff will be ok except the winter water situation, which I'm still turning over in my head.
I'm tired. I feel better, but the underlying uncertainly and falling-apart bits are still there. There are a bunch of symptoms of that I m still tracking.
It is decidedly fall. Leave are gold and falling, it's windy, my garden is flattened (still need to harvest carrots, sprouts, and potatoes), and the ducks and geese are running everywhere flapping their wings and sometimes taking off a couple feet. It's getting chilly. The sky is a deep and amazing blue designed to contrast perfectly with the gold of leaves and the white of aspen stems.
When I get home after being away, even just at work or overnight, the dogs and cats come find me and swarm around me at a polite distance (except for Hazard) while I'm doing the livestock rounds.
I have been really isolating myself, and I need to make the effort to reach out and talk to people more. I always enjoy it when I do, and it is a balm to my soul. I'm not sure how to go about doing that.
I think things may end up being ok but it's going to take some doing.
I interviewed two counselors, chose one, and have an appointment set up this coming week.
I picked up Tucker in PG and we had a mini-vacation there.
One of the big sensitive projects at work is over, and I can begin to work on the rest of them. The end of the year is in sight.
I am considering other job options and maybe other locations.
Animals all seem good, and I've scaled back my planned projects, so I think all farm stuff will be ok except the winter water situation, which I'm still turning over in my head.
I'm tired. I feel better, but the underlying uncertainly and falling-apart bits are still there. There are a bunch of symptoms of that I m still tracking.
It is decidedly fall. Leave are gold and falling, it's windy, my garden is flattened (still need to harvest carrots, sprouts, and potatoes), and the ducks and geese are running everywhere flapping their wings and sometimes taking off a couple feet. It's getting chilly. The sky is a deep and amazing blue designed to contrast perfectly with the gold of leaves and the white of aspen stems.
When I get home after being away, even just at work or overnight, the dogs and cats come find me and swarm around me at a polite distance (except for Hazard) while I'm doing the livestock rounds.
I have been really isolating myself, and I need to make the effort to reach out and talk to people more. I always enjoy it when I do, and it is a balm to my soul. I'm not sure how to go about doing that.
I think things may end up being ok but it's going to take some doing.