***DON'T WAKE ME UP IF I'M DREAMING***
Everything is FINALLY back to normal and I couldn't be happier. Nikki and I have spent the last couple of days texting non-stop while we were supposed to be working. Oops! *smiles* I think I drove everyone crazy because there wasn't a second I didn't have my phone in my hand. I'm just glad this hectic week is over. Everything should hopefully *crosses fingers* go back to normal at work on Monday.
Like I said, Nikki and I have been talking a lot the last couple of days. Everything is back to how it was but a million times better. We've even been talking about our future again. That definitely gives my heart a rest. I don't know what suddenly changed her mind and at this point I don't really care, I'm just glad it did. I made a promise to myself to never get that comfortable again. I want to cherish every moment I have with her. I will NEVER take what we have for granted ever again. Hearing the sound of her voice soothed my nerves. Hearing her tell me she loved me made my heart heal faster than it ever has. I've got to find a way to lessen the distance and I have to do it soon. Being without her is so hard. Every morning I wake up and reach for her and there's no one there. It sucks.
I had a dream this morning about a butterfly, which was weird all in itself, but when I looked up the meaning (Yes, I'm one of those dorks who reads dream dictionaries!!) it all made sense.
Butterfly
To see a butterfly in your dream, denotes your need to settle down. Butterflies also signifies creativity, romance, joy and spirituality. You may be undergoing a transformation into a new way of thinking.
Couldn't have said it better myself. That just proves that the things I say aren't just empty words, not if they're ending up in my dreams.
I had the most embarassing moment of my life today. Ok, anyone who knows me really, really well knows that talking about sex makes me incredibly uncomfortable unless it's with someone I'm 110% comfortable with, which is basically only Nikki. Which is exactly why EVERYONE at work says shit on purpose right in front of me just to watch me turn bright red and squirm. So, I went into Spencers today to look for something [naughty if you will] that I had bought there years ago. I didn't want to look like a total perv so I did a once around the store as if I was browsing. I doubled back to the shirts hanging on the wall because a really cute one caught my eye. It was in rainbow letters and it said "I know what girls like". I LOVED it! So I bent down to check to see if they had my size, which they did. Then I "accidently" stepped backwards into the naughty aisle. I was standing there for about 30 seconds trying to look inconspicuous, which obviously wasn't working because this kid that worked there (who was by far waaaaay younger than me!) walks up to me and goes "I don't mean to be rude...but it's part of my job..." and I was like "Okay....?" and he goes "But you know you have to be over 18 to purchase anything in this section, right???" I wanted to fucking DIE!! Of all the times I needed God to make me instantly disappear he was busy!!! I was like "I'm 25!!!" and he gave me the thumbs up and goes "You're good then!" and walked away. Well not even 2 seconds later he comes back to tell me about the sales. I wanted to run far, far away but I just smiled politely til he was done. I know he only came back because of the combination of me being in the naughty section and I'm sure he saw me looking at that shirt too. Asshole! After that I turned and hauled ass out of the store. I am NEVER going back in there, ever again!!
Hunter now has a commercial that has been running on MTV. So if you locals see a cute little blonde boy with baby blues that you can't help but fall in love with, that's him. I don't like the exposure he's getting. He's adorable, someone is bound to scoop him up fast. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's such a HUGE part of my life. If I didn't have him through all the stuff I've been going through lately, I don't know where I'd be now. He's my everything.
"Cause of you, I saw a changing in my destiny. Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see, how different life turned out to be, I've realized that it's my destiny."
Like I said, Nikki and I have been talking a lot the last couple of days. Everything is back to how it was but a million times better. We've even been talking about our future again. That definitely gives my heart a rest. I don't know what suddenly changed her mind and at this point I don't really care, I'm just glad it did. I made a promise to myself to never get that comfortable again. I want to cherish every moment I have with her. I will NEVER take what we have for granted ever again. Hearing the sound of her voice soothed my nerves. Hearing her tell me she loved me made my heart heal faster than it ever has. I've got to find a way to lessen the distance and I have to do it soon. Being without her is so hard. Every morning I wake up and reach for her and there's no one there. It sucks.
I had a dream this morning about a butterfly, which was weird all in itself, but when I looked up the meaning (Yes, I'm one of those dorks who reads dream dictionaries!!) it all made sense.
Butterfly
To see a butterfly in your dream, denotes your need to settle down. Butterflies also signifies creativity, romance, joy and spirituality. You may be undergoing a transformation into a new way of thinking.
Couldn't have said it better myself. That just proves that the things I say aren't just empty words, not if they're ending up in my dreams.
I had the most embarassing moment of my life today. Ok, anyone who knows me really, really well knows that talking about sex makes me incredibly uncomfortable unless it's with someone I'm 110% comfortable with, which is basically only Nikki. Which is exactly why EVERYONE at work says shit on purpose right in front of me just to watch me turn bright red and squirm. So, I went into Spencers today to look for something [naughty if you will] that I had bought there years ago. I didn't want to look like a total perv so I did a once around the store as if I was browsing. I doubled back to the shirts hanging on the wall because a really cute one caught my eye. It was in rainbow letters and it said "I know what girls like". I LOVED it! So I bent down to check to see if they had my size, which they did. Then I "accidently" stepped backwards into the naughty aisle. I was standing there for about 30 seconds trying to look inconspicuous, which obviously wasn't working because this kid that worked there (who was by far waaaaay younger than me!) walks up to me and goes "I don't mean to be rude...but it's part of my job..." and I was like "Okay....?" and he goes "But you know you have to be over 18 to purchase anything in this section, right???" I wanted to fucking DIE!! Of all the times I needed God to make me instantly disappear he was busy!!! I was like "I'm 25!!!" and he gave me the thumbs up and goes "You're good then!" and walked away. Well not even 2 seconds later he comes back to tell me about the sales. I wanted to run far, far away but I just smiled politely til he was done. I know he only came back because of the combination of me being in the naughty section and I'm sure he saw me looking at that shirt too. Asshole! After that I turned and hauled ass out of the store. I am NEVER going back in there, ever again!!
Hunter now has a commercial that has been running on MTV. So if you locals see a cute little blonde boy with baby blues that you can't help but fall in love with, that's him. I don't like the exposure he's getting. He's adorable, someone is bound to scoop him up fast. I don't know what I'd do without him. He's such a HUGE part of my life. If I didn't have him through all the stuff I've been going through lately, I don't know where I'd be now. He's my everything.
"Cause of you, I saw a changing in my destiny. Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see, how different life turned out to be, I've realized that it's my destiny."