Drama...all the freakin time
The week has been relaxing and frustrating at the same time. I have got plenty of sleep but trying to get over this cold that I have is making me mad cause I just want to relax but I can't while I cough up a lung. Have some stuff that I'm worried about that I just need an easy solution for but can't have one. Went to my sister's banquet tonight. She got honored for all kinds of stuff. If I wasn't pissed beyond belief at her then I would have been proud. My sister and I don't talk much. She puts her friends before her family which is fine...thats her choice. We had a convo the other night and some stuff that I did over this past semester...not terrible horrible stuff...just stuff that I'm not compleley proud of. She became angry with me over these things and basically told me that she will try not to hate me for my decision and try not to treat me like crap. Also she mentioned that I was a slut and a terrible person for what I did. Ok...so there are things in my life that I'm not proud of and I have to deal with those everyday of my life. There are choices that she has made that I dislike but you don't see me calling her a slut or a terrible person. When people make decisions that I don't approve of I let them know that I don't approve of them but I don't make them feel even more like shit than they already do. I talk it out with them until they come up or we come up with a solution. I love my sister dearly but this is going to be very hard to get over. She hugged me at the banquet and I gave her a half ass hug. She hasn't talked to me in 2 days and then all of a sudden wants me to be her best friend. She apologized for disagreeing with what I did and I know that she is not sorry for what she said nor is she sorry that she things what I did was wrong. I know my sister better than that. I told her whatever....I knew that I was a slut so it didn't matter. She stormed away. So her graduation is next week and I prefer not to go nor do I want to give her a dang present. I know that I will regret it if I don't do either so I will. Anyways...so...banquet...Steph and Andrew and I had a good time laughing at everyones stories and then I came home and I've been working on my scrap book. Anyways...just kind of having a poopy day but it shall get better. God gives you hills to climb but he is always there to hold your hand the whole way up and the whole way down. Alright have a good one.