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[greeneyedcelt03]

looking over the past few months worth of entries which unfortunately is only about five or six of them i have noticed that lately my writing style has been pretty incoherant, more or less inconprehensible and overall vague. i guess that is because that is how i have felt and been acting over the past few months. id like to think that one certain person understands and knows what is going on with me and is reaching out to me the way that i reach out to him. but lately i begin to wonder if maybe we have lost touch. maybe we dont have the connection i thought we had. maybe ive drawn inside of myself too far for him to see me anymore. i dont know. its just that every breath is a struggling gasp. and every release is a stab of pain, like a needle into my heart

and if i shed a tear i wont encange it
i wont fear love
and if i feel a rage i wont deny it
i wont fear love