i cant believe im back to this...

[greeneyedbaby16]

i tried to be so strong. i tried for once to do it all by myself. i wanted to succeed. to fell the satisfaction that i alone could make it. i wanted to take care of myself and be myself and strive for my goals and when i reached them, i would know that i did it

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[jackster006]

All my Christian friends are gone too, all went to college in different stats and around the world, I really don't get to talk to them often, so I don't get that good Christian fellowship that I remembered. I do go to church every Sunday and that is a great boost for my week.

It has been hard for me too. Some days I feel so far away from God and other it seems like he is right by my side, it can be hard sometimes but I always know that God is there, when I'm having a hard day I tend to pray to God a lot. Yesterday I had the worst days by far at work, I really felt like quitting my job. I was yelled and screamed at by so many parents and students because we just came out with 5 screens of rated R movies, and we have a strict policy. I just kept praying that things would go well, throughout the day, things got a little better and when the day was over and I thanked God for helping me throughout that day.

I guess that what I'm trying to say is that talking/praying to God has been really useful in my life... sometimes at night before I go to sleep I lay in bed for about in hour and just think about my life and I mentally talk to God about it. Like my worries and pains, I usually talk to him about my future, friends, work, my attitude, how I can be a better person, anything that comes to my mind. And then I always remember to thank him for all the good things he has provided for me. Like that he allowed me to be born in a wealthy and peaceful country. I don't have to look for food or clothes, like many people in this world, there are so many things to be thankful for and tend to forget about them.

And I wish I did this more often, but every time I read my Bible and try to get information from it my day is always wonderful. When I don’t read it my days are just bad or mediocre. Like I have been struggling in an area of my life, and it has been mentally hurting myself. About 4 days ago I opened up my bible and started to read a random chapter out of Proverbs, the chapter was so convicting that I have not struggled in that area for the last 4 days and it has felt good. There is so much good stuff on how to live your life in the Bible.

So whenever I feel like God has been far away, I pray or read my Bible. Matthew 5-7 is probably one of my favorite sections in the Bible because it is Jesus himself talking. I’m not sure exactly how your doing with your life but I open this helped…I was actually going to write a sentence but this kind of turned into a rant and a little about myself. Sorry about that.

Luke 18:27

What is impossible with men is possible for God.

Arykah God loves you so much!