Fuck This Noise,
So, for those of you who don't know me, I'm Kylee.
I have a lot of problems in my life...
One/a few I'd like to share right now.
I need to get it off my chest somehow, right?
I can't keep a diary anymore; my mom is the biggest 'snoop' ever.
So, I had this girlfriend, right? (yes I am bisexual. I am not a poser. Fuck you if you think otherwise.) And I have a best friend (Best guy friend) and his name is Paul. My ex-girlfriend's name is Nikki.
I met them in 7th grade.
I have had a crush on Nikki ever since.
So, finally, during June (June 8th to be exact) I decided to be smooth and comment Nikki on myspace saying:
"Hey, you single yet?"
She said yes... I said:
"Oh, so I'm curious, would you ever date a chick with a mohawk?"
"Only if her name is Kylee..."
Smooth...
So anywaaayy...
There's been a lot of shit that's happened between us, and yet I am the better person and stayed with her because I wanted it to work.
Problem 1: I had her myspace stuff, and I got onto her profile to be silly. I was going to send a message to her from her own myspace, from me. It was going to be cute. But once I got curious, I decided to read some of her already read messages. Long-story-short, she had another relationship with some guy behind my back. Niiice....
I worked it out though. Paul helped me...
Problem 2: I slept over at her house. We went swimming, and decided to take a shower. Now, I know I am not attractive, okay? Especially my body. But, we didn't do anything other than shower, so whatever. But a few days later, it got back to me that she had said, "After seeing Kylee in the shower, I am not 'attatched' to her anymore..." Something like that... So, I finally grew some balls and called her to talk. I am not much of a talker, so it was hard for me. Anyway, because I am a pushover, I forgave her and let it go. I believed her when she said, "I didn't mean it to come out like that!" "Kylee, promise me that you will leave me if I hurt you again..."
Problem 3: I was on the phone with a buddy of mine, Devin, and Paul. 3-way call. So, Paul and I have this everlong inside joke about a sex position we made up, so to freak Devin out, I said, "Hey Paul, if Nikki and I ever split up, let's do it redneck style!" We all 3 laughed, then, Paul says:
"Oh, Kylee, Nikki said the same thing the other day."
"What?"
"Well, except she said 'Paul I know Kylee and I aren't going to last, so when we break up, do you wanna fuck?'"
See, I was joking when I said that to Paul, Nikki on the other hand... no.
Her and I got into a fight, because I said I didn't feel she loved me and I knew she loved Paul instead. She got pissed and said, "Fine if you don't want to be with me, then we're through! I do love you and I don't love Paul! " etc. So she broke us up because I hurt her.
Because I'm stupid, I felt bad, and somehow her and I got back together...
So, just the other day Nikki had her sister's phone and sent me text when she was drunk and said, "Are we ever going to have sex?" I laughed and shook it off. She was drunk, right? Well, I wasn't pissed until I went to go hang out with Paul. Apparently I wasn't the only person to receive said text. So, again, I knew she still loved my best friend.
He began to share the conversation they had when she called him drunk, having a break down. She was rambling on about how she didn't want to go to school and nothing was worth it anymore, etc. I finally decided I am sick of her shit. I have put up with it tooo long.
So yesterday, I get a call from her older sister (who I love dearly. Her whole family. I love 'em) telling me that Nikki was missing. That pissed me off. So when Nikki finally got home, I had her talk to me and I told her about how I knew about the text message... she played the whole "Ew! Gross!" charade, and I didn't buy it this time. Nope. Like I said, I was done with it. Soo... we broke up. She knows I'm mad and yea...
That's how everything is right now.
Oh and not to mention I haven't been able to go to school for 2 days. I am not registered. Hopefully tomorrow, we will actually be able to get it done and correctly without problems.... *sigh* Sorry! Goodbye! :p
♥
I have a lot of problems in my life...
One/a few I'd like to share right now.
I need to get it off my chest somehow, right?
I can't keep a diary anymore; my mom is the biggest 'snoop' ever.
So, I had this girlfriend, right? (yes I am bisexual. I am not a poser. Fuck you if you think otherwise.) And I have a best friend (Best guy friend) and his name is Paul. My ex-girlfriend's name is Nikki.
I met them in 7th grade.
I have had a crush on Nikki ever since.
So, finally, during June (June 8th to be exact) I decided to be smooth and comment Nikki on myspace saying:
"Hey, you single yet?"
She said yes... I said:
"Oh, so I'm curious, would you ever date a chick with a mohawk?"
"Only if her name is Kylee..."
Smooth...
So anywaaayy...
There's been a lot of shit that's happened between us, and yet I am the better person and stayed with her because I wanted it to work.
Problem 1: I had her myspace stuff, and I got onto her profile to be silly. I was going to send a message to her from her own myspace, from me. It was going to be cute. But once I got curious, I decided to read some of her already read messages. Long-story-short, she had another relationship with some guy behind my back. Niiice....
I worked it out though. Paul helped me...
Problem 2: I slept over at her house. We went swimming, and decided to take a shower. Now, I know I am not attractive, okay? Especially my body. But, we didn't do anything other than shower, so whatever. But a few days later, it got back to me that she had said, "After seeing Kylee in the shower, I am not 'attatched' to her anymore..." Something like that... So, I finally grew some balls and called her to talk. I am not much of a talker, so it was hard for me. Anyway, because I am a pushover, I forgave her and let it go. I believed her when she said, "I didn't mean it to come out like that!" "Kylee, promise me that you will leave me if I hurt you again..."
Problem 3: I was on the phone with a buddy of mine, Devin, and Paul. 3-way call. So, Paul and I have this everlong inside joke about a sex position we made up, so to freak Devin out, I said, "Hey Paul, if Nikki and I ever split up, let's do it redneck style!" We all 3 laughed, then, Paul says:
"Oh, Kylee, Nikki said the same thing the other day."
"What?"
"Well, except she said 'Paul I know Kylee and I aren't going to last, so when we break up, do you wanna fuck?'"
See, I was joking when I said that to Paul, Nikki on the other hand... no.
Her and I got into a fight, because I said I didn't feel she loved me and I knew she loved Paul instead. She got pissed and said, "Fine if you don't want to be with me, then we're through! I do love you and I don't love Paul! " etc. So she broke us up because I hurt her.
Because I'm stupid, I felt bad, and somehow her and I got back together...
So, just the other day Nikki had her sister's phone and sent me text when she was drunk and said, "Are we ever going to have sex?" I laughed and shook it off. She was drunk, right? Well, I wasn't pissed until I went to go hang out with Paul. Apparently I wasn't the only person to receive said text. So, again, I knew she still loved my best friend.
He began to share the conversation they had when she called him drunk, having a break down. She was rambling on about how she didn't want to go to school and nothing was worth it anymore, etc. I finally decided I am sick of her shit. I have put up with it tooo long.
So yesterday, I get a call from her older sister (who I love dearly. Her whole family. I love 'em) telling me that Nikki was missing. That pissed me off. So when Nikki finally got home, I had her talk to me and I told her about how I knew about the text message... she played the whole "Ew! Gross!" charade, and I didn't buy it this time. Nope. Like I said, I was done with it. Soo... we broke up. She knows I'm mad and yea...
That's how everything is right now.
Oh and not to mention I haven't been able to go to school for 2 days. I am not registered. Hopefully tomorrow, we will actually be able to get it done and correctly without problems.... *sigh* Sorry! Goodbye! :p
♥