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i was calm .
and
i was serious.

and i didn't feel inferior.
and i didn't stutter.

and i didn't feel like i needed to defend myself.

and i knew
for sure
that this time
what i was feeling
was
for once honest
and what i was saying,
the words that were coming out of me,
matched those feelings.

there is no being ecstatic
or thrilled.

this is serious.
and this is real.

and if it's on my own
without support
then it is on my own without support.
because in this little body
there is so much strength
and the willingness to fight
for this alone.