I miss him.. That's all
Last night was one of the best/worst nights of my life.
TJ is leaving for Oregon for 5 days...
For Debate
He's so damn smart.
Yesterday we couldn't hang out in the morning because he was supposed to be in the Debate room..
But I was sad so he stayed with me instead.
We didn't have the same lunch because on Wednesdays I have first lunch and he has third..
So I skipped 3rd period so I could be with him before he left..
I let him borrow my phone during 5th so he could call his mom to see if he could stay after school
While he had my phone him and Brittany Maddux were texting
He told her that he's in love with me..
I like him sooo much!
He got to stay after school, and I showed him my pottery project cause it was SO AMAZING!
He said it was awesome and it was super cute
hahahaha
He decided he can't say cute anymore so it was also 'pretty cool, I guess' hahaha
He's so amazing.
After school we hung out from 2:00 till 5:15
We walked to Hastings
looked at books
looked at CDs
& porn
Walked back to CV
saw a dead cat
got hit by cars
J walked
Got to CV and...
made out
and had fun..
got into a fight so I cried even though it was my fault..
we hung out with his friend for a tid
while we were with his friend he told me I couldn't 'CUT' or 'PUKE' while he was gone..
So I freaked out and said 'Why don't we talk about all my fucking problems infront of your friend'
and he was super sad and upset and his friend's like no it's cool I"m not gonna judge you it's okay
It was sad, because you could tell he just wanted to make everything okay..
I felt bad for freaking out...
TJ decided that he likes to tease me
I don't like it.
I told him that he's the most beautiful boy I've ever seen
and I meant it.
I like him so much
We have so much fun together
He told me that if I dont cut or puke while he's gone we will have sex when he gets back
I asked him, what if I do, will I still have a chance to redeem myself?
He said that for each time I do sumthing I shouldn't I have to wait
3 WEEKS
That's a long time...
When he had to leave I started crying
it was sad
I told him not to leave, I told him he could just come and live with me for 5 days
He doesn't think my dad would like that...
He left this morning.. super early
WE had an awesome time on Wednesday afternoon, but I wish it would have been better
I wish I wouldn't have been bitchy, and I know he's not mad or upset with me
But I always do this, I get in a super bitchy mood cause sumthin is gonna happen that I don't like
and that I can't stop
So I get in a bad mood
Then I regret it. :(
ahhhh I miss him..
This is gonna be the longest 5 days EVER.