Recent news in the world of me.

Aug 17, 2007 14:12

    So I've decided I'm going to put my two weeks in. I'll be making the schedule for this week, and when I get my Final Evaluation back from the chef, then I'm going to drop the bomb. I've decided the stress and drama aren't worth it, as well as a thousand other reasons that only make sense for me to leave and stay at WSG full-time. Grades are posted for my externship period on Monday, so I guess that leaves only an exit interview between me and graduating in October. I'm pretty stoked, it actually all turned out alright.

I'm sort of hesitant about being out of the kitchen for an indefinite period of time, but I'm also needing cash pretty bad. I want to get out of the financial rut I've gotten myself into, and to not have to live paycheck to paycheck, living in fear of overdrawing all the while. I need to pay off my parking tickets before I find out one day that my license has been suspended or something. I just want to get back on my feet, even if I have to put my career to the side for a few months. I also want to seriously start looking into schools, for nutrition. I know I'm not capable of moving out anytime soon, but I don't want to stay here forever, either. It's just to know what to save for, what to focus on. I just want to build my resume, but only if I can go back to a job that doesn't overwhelm with the work of 3 people and pay less than what they should for 1. I don't want to sound like I don't appreciate the position they gave me as Shift Leader, but in the end, I've only come to find that a dollar raise isn't worth it. By becoming shift leader, I've put myself in a position where everything is my fault, always - even on days that I'm not there and had nothing to do with anything at Jaguar. They expect the world of me, and if something goes wrong, they have a way of kicking you when you're down, just to show you that you can't do the work of three people, simultaneously... I mean, no shit. I'm given this air that what I say or think or do is important, but it's not - only when it's wrong, and that they can tell me just how wrong I am and how much I suck. It's shitty that it's come to this, but hey- I got out of it what I needed, whether it's to graduate or to build my resume. C'est la vie ... I get to go back to a job making 50% more hourly, setting my own hours and schedule, getting to look nice and see my mom everyday. I won't complain.

I've also heard back from my doctor, and thankfully, it's not kidney stones. UTIs come and go, and I'm pretty much alright. I got my results back from the three different ultrasounds, two were normal, one showed a benign cyst on my left ovary. I have to go back in three months and see what the deal is with that, and try to not think about it. I don't think anything will come of it, but there's always that worry that it might have a greater effect on my life than I want to think about at this point. Bleh. I'm sure it'll be fine, whatever happens.

I really want a puppy, but I know I can't have one right now. My cats would probably eat it, and I want to be able to spend a lot of time with it.... and at this point, time is not something I have plenty of. I don't want him/her to be lonely while no one is home, either. I just keep having dreams of me having a dog, and I realize that I think about it a lot. Maybe when things get sorted out, I can work on getting another pet. Until then, I'll just keep dreaming.

Yay for first days of the rag. Then having your Fridays off taken away, so you get to work TWO jobs instead... and getting to open Saturday morning. Bastardos.
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