The missed and dreams

[greatidioteque]

I really miss her.
Well, maybe her could possibly be a synonym
for any girl I've ever cared about?
(I wish it could be that simple)
Any girl who was caring
Any girl who displayed the ability to love
the ability to be loved.

I keep getting these vivid dreams. They torture me.
My lucid dreams have become nightmares,
because I carry my agreements in this world to that world.
Perhaps I should discuss this with who accompanies me in the dream (while in the dream)?
Only I have always believed I am actually dreaming with that person, and
I don't want to interfere with her dreams any more than her life.
At least, I don't want to be the bad guy..
but it's really hard to squeeze the bad out of a person
whose only goal in life was to be good.

I cannot sleep in my a panic.
I wake at all hours, hearing my name.
Knocks on my door.

My recovery will begin in 8 weeks once school is out, and it will be wondrous.