In which we recount the horrors of chronic sleeplessness
Six hours of sleep over four days is not healthy. Especially when it followed a day without sleep and several days when there was well less than four hours a night. I know that I am not thinking clearly at this point in time and I have to be. There are too many things at stake at this time for me to be unable to think quickly on my feet and take care of things. The problem seems to be that I cannot turn my brain off at night to sleep. Even if I am so exhausted that I almost literally pass out- I am awake again with 30 minutes or so- my brain going a mile a minute. I have always been someone who remembered my dreams but I can't tell you one dream that I have had in the last 2 months. I know that I cannot go on like this but I don't know what to do about it. I fear that the depression is far deeper than I thought and I have done little to cope with it, at least in this regard. I just feel that there is so much to do that sleeping is a waste of time, but I am too tired to get anything done. What a catch-22. Oh well... will try to get a few hours tonight.