just waiting. . . . .

[grbp7]

its weird to hear from certain people, nice though. its late and i won't be able to wake up tomorrow. someone told me today that you're worth the wait, you're worth this anticipation. i agree. i see you, i see beyond the fear, and beyond all that crap. why must you give your love to someone who is so undeserving. i hate liars, and that's what she is. how? how? i just don't understand. at least you called. george misses you so much.
cynthia, even though all of high school we separated, i have never forgotten the old you. the you who can write such beautiful things. you make my heart swell with pride. i am blessed to have known you like i have. you will always have my love and my friendship.
i don't want to leave here to create a new me. i love who i am, i don't plan on changing. i just....i don't want to be judged on my actions that i did in the past, but for who i am now. i dont want my life and reputation to be created by liars, by people who assume. alot of what follows me now are all lies. really i don't care, i haven't for many years, but the repercussions that happened with leonard made me care once more. he now sees who i am though. i guess it doesn't matter. fuck the people that lie. fuck liars. i know, and the people who love and know me know who i am, and what i'm about.
this is a stupid entry. whatever.
nothing good comes out of these fingertips anymore.