good to hear...
well i'm happy to have heard from an old friend. how simple things can make one so happy. i should be studying...i don't want to. i say be strong, i say don't be afraid, but in all reality it's so hard for me to do the same. someone once told me that no one can could ever break me, no one will. i fall, but i stand back up, stronger, and better, and with more knowledge. leonard, you taught me not to fight fire with fire. i continue to be a good friend...or whatever i am. i will not be in the wrong. i thought you were my saving grace...he will come. i must stop...i must quit thinking. SURRENDER. each day...each hour i must remind myself of this. oh to be able to write great things once again...that talent was lost along with the innocence that was left behind. even now things that happened 6 years ago...why did you judge. it is my own fault. each choice has its consequences. for my daughter...i will teach you that innocence is everything, hold on to it. it is beautiful. i don't want this to happen again, i don't want to explain numbers to my husband. i don't want him to judge.
its nice to know that your thoughts and words can inspire someone else. it feels like you're important, like you matter. some people tell you they love you but their actions never prove it...something simple like listening and....thats all it takes.
i want to leave this city, start brand new...where no one can speak an ill word. but to much binds me to this place. my mom, george. this is my home, this is where i want to grow old, but...i don't want my past to follow me anymore. alejandra is leaving...maybe in the spring, hopefully next fall. she has been my saving grace. without her friendship all these years, i might have been broken, and i definitely would have been lost. what will i do when she leaves? who will i eat ardivinos salads with? who will be there like she has? in this desperation i want to go with her, but i know i can't.
SURRENDER. i will know what to do when the time comes. He will guide me.
its nice to know that your thoughts and words can inspire someone else. it feels like you're important, like you matter. some people tell you they love you but their actions never prove it...something simple like listening and....thats all it takes.
i want to leave this city, start brand new...where no one can speak an ill word. but to much binds me to this place. my mom, george. this is my home, this is where i want to grow old, but...i don't want my past to follow me anymore. alejandra is leaving...maybe in the spring, hopefully next fall. she has been my saving grace. without her friendship all these years, i might have been broken, and i definitely would have been lost. what will i do when she leaves? who will i eat ardivinos salads with? who will be there like she has? in this desperation i want to go with her, but i know i can't.
SURRENDER. i will know what to do when the time comes. He will guide me.