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i've only been back in little rock for about an hour, and i already feel as if i'm in the pits of despair. i know that in about half an hour, i've got to go to work, then it's going to be back to the same routine - being around jerri, being around coke, feeling like there's absolutely no hope at all.
i pretty much decided yesterday that i'm going to move to fayetteville. when i was up there, i didn't miss anything about this place. it's almost the same - it's got bars, lots of people, lots of good places to eat. just not the same negativity and coked-out aura as little rock. people don't seem so judgemental on whether or not you're "cool." i actually got to sleep for more than two to five hours a night. i actually ate at least twice a day. i got to talk to people about other things than trite bullshit. when i described what it was like down here, the common reaction was a dropped jaw and wide eyes, followed by "man, you've got to get the fuck out of there. get up here immediately."
...i think i may do just that. in fact, i'm probably putting in my two week's notice to damgoode tomorrow.
i pretty much decided yesterday that i'm going to move to fayetteville. when i was up there, i didn't miss anything about this place. it's almost the same - it's got bars, lots of people, lots of good places to eat. just not the same negativity and coked-out aura as little rock. people don't seem so judgemental on whether or not you're "cool." i actually got to sleep for more than two to five hours a night. i actually ate at least twice a day. i got to talk to people about other things than trite bullshit. when i described what it was like down here, the common reaction was a dropped jaw and wide eyes, followed by "man, you've got to get the fuck out of there. get up here immediately."
...i think i may do just that. in fact, i'm probably putting in my two week's notice to damgoode tomorrow.