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[theurbancowboy]

The day was dragging by like a turtle in a race. I was not in the best mood, Lilah had stormed into my office first thing in the morning asking me what was going on. I honestly had no idea what she was blathering on about, i just wanted to get a few cases on the judges' docket and get out of there, I had a lot to do before I headed over to Tara's

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[theurbancowboy]

I'd known the question was going to be met with sadness, and though I wanted nothing more than to take her pain away, it was something she'd have to deal with.

And my intentions had to be more than obvious by now. It was something a man needed to know. A breakup that caused her to move was something important. It marked kind of a crossroad in her life, as I was sure i'd be finding more from her past, the most recent was the most important at that momment.

"I'm sorry doesn't quite seem the appropriate response. Neither does her loss is my gain, but both spring to mind."

I was not going to coddle Tara, I knew in every person there was a battle, in my case it was who I'd become and who I wanted to be. In hers, it was possibly who she was and who she was meant to be. That I wasn't totally sure of. But I was determined to be there when she found it all out.

"I could spout out a cliche' here and there about pain making you stronger, which sure sometimes maybe it does, but its never what people want to hear, or even need to hear. But I'm going to take another route."

I got up and headed back to the kitchen coming back out with my famous, at least back home, chocolate moouse.

"I call it life by chocolate" I give her a toothy grin.

[magick_goddess]

His total honesty and lack of 'awwwh you poor thing' just floored me. I was glad I let him in last night and I'd followed him when he turned to leave. If I hadn't then I wouldn't know any of this. I wouldn't know him.

I stood up when he left to go into the kitchen and I turned to look out the window, my mind spinning and trying to grasp onto all comprehension. I bit my lip and closed my eyes when the lewdest thought I'd ever had crossed into my mind.

For a fleeting moment, even though it was just fleeting, I was tempted to go up to him and kiss him hard and deep. I felt myself blush as I felt heat build up in the pit of my stomach.

I don't know what it was but the way Lindsey handles himself, how honest and everything he was just drew me in more. He was going to be my end, I knew this. At he same time I didn't seem to care.

I heard him come back into the room and I smiled, commenting to his previous words. "If pain makes someone stronger I could beat a Slayer...that is if I did that sort of thing..." I blushed and tucked my hair behind my ear.

I took the chocolate from him and grinned. I started to take a bite but I paused, putting the spoon back down and looking at him. "You're so going to be the end of me Lindsey, frankly, I don't care." Licking my lips I look down at the cup. "I've never been one..." I sighed. "I haven't had many relationships...there have been two..." I looked up at him.

As frightened as I was about getting hurt, I wanted him to be three.

[theurbancowboy]

The end of her. As long as I was there in that end I could deal with that. I could definately deal with that.

And her mind seemed so far from the chocolate moouse. I was hesitant to do what I knew both of us wanted to do. I knew there was no turning back from here weither I did this or not.

I started towards her and stopped.

"Tara ... You know there's no going back from this right? You know who I am and what I do and that I can't just walk away from that? They own me, legally and I'm not always the best guy. And I don't want to drag you down into my hellish life because you deserve better than that. Not to mention the fact that you just left a relationship, a life to start fresh and ..."

[magick_goddess]

I looked up at him when he moved towards me. My heart sank when he stopped. I listened to his words, sadly they were the truth, all of it was the hard truth.

I rolled it over in my mind, trying to make sense of it all. Everything kept going back to him. I knew what I wanted and I knew that what I wanted was him. Lindsey wasn't an easy man, I knew that the day we met at the club. I knew that everything that came along with being with him would be hard and rough. More day's then not ending with a fight of some sorts and more then likely me in tears. None of it would be anything to be taken lightly.

But it was something to fight for. He was. I was sure of it.

"Lindsey, stop. Stop thinking like a lawyer and think like a man." I murmured, setting the moose down and standing where I was. "I-I want..." I looked at my hands and then back up at him. "Stop thinking and just kiss me..." I said nearly breathless.

[theurbancowboy]

She interrupted me. That simple sentence, from a not so simple woman.

I didn't skip a beat before she was in my arms and my lips pressed to her, not lightly, but not roughly either. I pulled her as close to my body as she could get hoping that it wasn't too much.

I brought one hand up to her face, rubbing my thumb over her cheek and entangling it into her blonde tresses. I deepened the kiss, sliding my tounge against hers. My heart was racing.

[magick_goddess]

I could feel his heart pounding against my chest, my own heart beats mimmiced his.

I felt his hand in my hair and I moaned softly as I wrapped my arms around him. One hand around his waist and the other in his hair. I felt his tongue run against mine and I moaned. I gently sucked on his bottom lip, I moaned as I felt him pull me closer to him.

I pulled back for a moment when we both needed to breathe. I looked up at him and my eyes met his for a moment. I leaned forward and kissed his lips lightly before the kiss deepened and got more intense.

[theurbancowboy]

Her kiss held promise that didn't do anything for my restraint. Restraint I was kicking myself for having.

I was lost in the passion I felt for this woman, and with this woman.

I refused to forget what this felt like, what she tasted like. I wanted to feel her skin beneath my fingertips. All of her skin.

My body hardened at the thought, my hand roaming dangerously close to the hem of her shirt. Less than an inch of exposed skin against the palm of my hand and I tested touching the skin on her back.

I rubbed slowly with my thumb, breathing heavily.

[magick_goddess]

The kiss broke and I rested my forehead against his, our breathing labored. I licked my lips and took him in; every part of him I wanted to know and memorize.

I gasped and involuntarily pressed my body closer to his. His fingers on my bare skin sending shocks through my body. I closed my eyes and moaned softly as my lips met his again.

I couldn't get enough of him, I wanted more, I felt like I needed more. "Lindsey..." I murmured against his lips as I ran my hand down his chest.

[theurbancowboy]

I kissed her carefully, with heat and passion. There was pieces inside of me stirring to get out, wanting to push this as far as it could go.

But I knew that I couldn't.

I pulled back from her carefully, pressing my forehead against hers.

"You have no idea how hard it is for me to say this, but we should slow down."

I sighed and framed her face with my hands, trying to keep my composure. I kissed her lightly, nibbling on her bottom lip for a moment.

"We have all the time in the world."

[magick_goddess]

"You have no idea how hard it is for me to say this, but we should slow down."

I licked my lips and nodded. "Yeah..." I closed my eyes, loving how his warm hands felt against my face. I felt him bite my bottom lip softly and I moaned.

"Yeah, all the time..." I ran my hand down his face and I could feel my eyes start to smart. Blinking a few times I looked up at him, this wasn't Mr. McDonald, Wolfram and Hart attorney that was standing in front of me but this was Lindsey McDonald, country boy at heart.

"Thank you." I murmured against his lips. "For not pushing..." I leaned up and kissed him softly, flicking my tongue over his lip. "So," I smiled up at him. "what else is in that bag of goodies Lindsey?"

[theurbancowboy]

I smiled and her and pulled back.

"So, what else is in that bag of goodies Lindsey?"

I grinned and released my grip on her and starting into the kitchen where the bag lied.

"I did get one thing, I just happened by this store that caught my attention on the way over, I couldn't not go in. And then I saw this and couldn't not get it for you."

I pulled out the leather bound book and handed it to her. On the front cover was a depiction of the Goddess Diana stepping out of a lake with the full moon shinning down on her. It was etched into the leather perfectly.

"I didn't know if you had a journal or a book of shadows, but I saw this and it reminded me of you."