Now we have to take this thorn, and tear it from our side...

[graphik_chaos]

To end my weekend... I find I should keep my feelings to myself in some instances... makes it easier to deal with things. As wonderful a time as I had yesterday... Brittany is still not over Jonathan at all... I don't wanna interfere... I mean, I do, cuz I want another chance with her, another chance to be happy... to make her happy. But she won't let go, and I doubt Ima have the chance to show her that if she gave me another chance, I'd make it worth her while, make her happy again... (I know I'm being Emo, so Brad, or John if you're reading this, screw you, insult me in person, and just let me rant) I just miss her so much, I regret alot of things, and I try to keep them inside, but this is different, I don't know why, I can't keep it in. Of all the things I've done in the past few years, ending my relationship with her is the biggest of them all. I could still be happy, she could still be happy... I dunno. I might be acting stupid, being a hopeless idiot... hopeless being the key word... but all the stuff from yesterday, glad it happened, and wish that it'd last longer, but somethings just don't work out I guess. I hope in due time I might get my chance with her again, cuz I know thats what I want, just hope its what she wants too.. atleast some where down the line...

"...Your connected to the heart
But tonight we'll set you free

So swallow the knife
Carve the way for your pride
Now our hands are tied
The problems lie within
So we pray for night
To start over again..."

I just want her to be happy... Even if I feel like shit, if she's happy, then its not all bad... Im sorry Brittany...