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I shan't be voting for this election. I know, of course, that almost none of you care whether I voted or not, but since I can see myself being lectured by a few of my friends during an IM conversation, I'll just head that all off. I also feel some mild need to beat myself up over the matter via my LJ. Funny how I tend to use my LJ for the purpose of beating myself up, even if it's usually over relatively trivial matters.
I've had my absentee ballot for about a month. Yet, rather than quickly open the envelope, vote, and send the ballot off, I instead opted to wait so I could, in some vague and self-important thought of civic responsibility, research all of the candidates. Considering my habits on these sorts of matters, this was a naive thought. Oh sure, I would occasionally do some web searchs on the matter, but for the most part my ballot was left stored away and forgotten. Now I remember, and since it is too late to hope the ballot will be delivered before the polls close and, from my understanding of the procedures, this renders my ballot worthless, I'm just not going to fill it out. Oh well, it's a darn shame. Hopefully next year I won't be so silly. In any case, please, no lectures. I'm speaking to only a small percentage of my small friends list, but I'm sure you know who you are.
I truly fail at sleeping. It's been an ongoing problem, as I'm sure you all have noticed. To illustrate, I went to bed yesterday at 8:30 AM, woke up at 4:30 PM, and then did not sleep last night (I was just doing my CS project when all of a sudden it was 6:30 AM). I'm still not sure if I should just go to bed now or force myself to stay awake until the evening.
I think I need some sort of stabilizing force in my life. My sleep schedule seems to wander like a lost explorer (or some other more interesting simile). I stayed up late throughout high school, sure, but never later than 3 AM. I didn't pull all nighters ever. The continuous need to wake up at 7 AM and stay awake until 5 PM kept me close to some form of a routing and sanity. But now, these time restrictions have been weakened to such a degree I no longer am forced to be stable. Combine this with my poor time management skills and the fact that most of the residents of our hall stay up late. I shall emphasize this latter fact, as most of my friends from the hall are prime examples of possessors of poor sleep schedules. None of my friends are as bad as me, but it doesn't help that so many people hang out in my room until 2 AM (and sometimes as late as 4:30 AM, even on weekdays occaisionally). My roommate Chad is probably the biggest source of these strange hours, although Jeremy also has a tendency to game far too late. Of course, I enjoy gaming late into the morning, too. We reinforce are eachother's bad habits.
*sigh*
I need to force some regularity into my sleep schedule. I suppose the most important aspect of this is forcing my friends and, most importantly, myself to stop goofing off by 2 AM, if not earlier.
And for some reason, all of the study habits I developed before fall break have disappeared, and I need some sort of routine to be able to focus on my work. My working theory is that my bad sleep schedule is to blame. It's hard to develop a routine for studying when I take naps at the most random times. Well, this and that I'm not a focused person to begin with. In general, I always feel like I'm slacking, because I keep getting distracted by games, conversations, etc.
My bad study habits probably reinforce my bad sleep habits, come to think of it. I had that whole mess with my last CS project that caused one or two all-nighters two weeks ago.
Eh, I'm messed up and maladjusted in some critical ways.
And I've put all of that in various cuts, because, you know, no one likes angstyish posts. But really, even when you factor all of that in, I think that my life is going pretty well (or the lack of sleep has affected my mind).