I hate everyone
Omfg.. I hate everyone!
I talked to Tom yesterday and he doesnt care about me at all anymore, but I am really getting sick of writing about him anymore b.c we have been broken up for 4 months now .. i really need to get the fuck over it.
Anyway, I babysat at his aunts last night b.c he was "busy" and his cousin is so cute. Her name is Kaitlyn and I love her. His aunt came and picked me up at 7:30 and they left around 8. We stopped at the store for chips and we talked a little bit about what has been going on. Then when they left I babysat kaitlyn, Steven and Billy. It felt so good to be over there with them. I mean I have been around the baby since she was born and I want to see her grow up. So anyway they came home just in time for the baby to get cranky and Toms mom and dad gave me a ride home. I was talking to his mom and she told me she still loved me even though I hang up on her and I asked what she meant, but i really dont hang up on her It's just when i call I only let it ring 2 times. I dont know why i am weird. So i made fun of his dad like always and then i went home. His mom told me to come around whenever I want b.c his family loves me.. I missed his parents so much.
Well anyway .. I went home and Ryan called me at like 2:30 in the a.m and we talked a little and then i went back to bed. So this morn. Heather woke me up to go prom dress shopping so I got up and we went to David's Bridal.. I didnt find anything I liked and my mom was pissing me off the whole day. So we went to Park ave. south and I got my money back and when i got home i went on the internet and found a bridal shop that has the dress i want .. so I asked my mom for her credit card and she told me no .. that my dad has to pay for everything .. so w.e i flipped out on her . b.c my dad cant pay for everything and she doesnt pay for anything and she decided to come in my room and basically rip me apart. So w.e she was telling me how she hates me and doesnt want me here and to go move with my dad and then she was like oh wait he doesnt want you either. Then she went on about how she is embarrased to take me out anywhere b.c the way I look and shit .. she wants me to be like motha fucking Paris hilton and i'm fucking not. So w.e she went on for like 20 minutes telling me how i think i am better then everyone .. how I'm not going to graduate .. even though i get a's and b's and how I'm a loser and shit. Okay so i was lie shut the fuck up and get out of my room and she goes shut your mouth before i slap your face and i was like go ahead and hit me b.c i'll hit you right back .. so w.e she is so ridiculous.. i didnt cry or anything, even though i wanted to, but i knew she wanted me to cry so i didnt. I wished i could call Tom and he would make it all better like he used to, but I cant and I hate it more then anything. I'm beginning to hate this life. I have sores all over my mouth from throwing up and I really think it's because i am so stressed ... i dont know whats wrong with me, but i really hate my life.
I'm going to Jays to type my research paper..
b.c i am such a fucking loser.
<3
I talked to Tom yesterday and he doesnt care about me at all anymore, but I am really getting sick of writing about him anymore b.c we have been broken up for 4 months now .. i really need to get the fuck over it.
Anyway, I babysat at his aunts last night b.c he was "busy" and his cousin is so cute. Her name is Kaitlyn and I love her. His aunt came and picked me up at 7:30 and they left around 8. We stopped at the store for chips and we talked a little bit about what has been going on. Then when they left I babysat kaitlyn, Steven and Billy. It felt so good to be over there with them. I mean I have been around the baby since she was born and I want to see her grow up. So anyway they came home just in time for the baby to get cranky and Toms mom and dad gave me a ride home. I was talking to his mom and she told me she still loved me even though I hang up on her and I asked what she meant, but i really dont hang up on her It's just when i call I only let it ring 2 times. I dont know why i am weird. So i made fun of his dad like always and then i went home. His mom told me to come around whenever I want b.c his family loves me.. I missed his parents so much.
Well anyway .. I went home and Ryan called me at like 2:30 in the a.m and we talked a little and then i went back to bed. So this morn. Heather woke me up to go prom dress shopping so I got up and we went to David's Bridal.. I didnt find anything I liked and my mom was pissing me off the whole day. So we went to Park ave. south and I got my money back and when i got home i went on the internet and found a bridal shop that has the dress i want .. so I asked my mom for her credit card and she told me no .. that my dad has to pay for everything .. so w.e i flipped out on her . b.c my dad cant pay for everything and she doesnt pay for anything and she decided to come in my room and basically rip me apart. So w.e she was telling me how she hates me and doesnt want me here and to go move with my dad and then she was like oh wait he doesnt want you either. Then she went on about how she is embarrased to take me out anywhere b.c the way I look and shit .. she wants me to be like motha fucking Paris hilton and i'm fucking not. So w.e she went on for like 20 minutes telling me how i think i am better then everyone .. how I'm not going to graduate .. even though i get a's and b's and how I'm a loser and shit. Okay so i was lie shut the fuck up and get out of my room and she goes shut your mouth before i slap your face and i was like go ahead and hit me b.c i'll hit you right back .. so w.e she is so ridiculous.. i didnt cry or anything, even though i wanted to, but i knew she wanted me to cry so i didnt. I wished i could call Tom and he would make it all better like he used to, but I cant and I hate it more then anything. I'm beginning to hate this life. I have sores all over my mouth from throwing up and I really think it's because i am so stressed ... i dont know whats wrong with me, but i really hate my life.
I'm going to Jays to type my research paper..
b.c i am such a fucking loser.
<3