forever..
Well I always do this ..
I write and then I dont write for a long time.
Well I havent been up to really anything
I've been hanging out with Ryan a lot.
He has turned into my best friend for my break haha.
Last night I called Tom
He got fired from his job
He told me he goes out with Krystal now
and he seemed a little mad that I have been with Ryan
I almost threw up when he told me they go out
I just started to cry
I asked him if he was happy
he told me he is content
I dont get it
He told me its just a layed back relationship and that the other night he could have hung out with her until 12, but he left early and went to Rutgers
.. Well she doesnt know everything I know
so of course she wont care.
I hung up after a while b.c i dont want to cry over someone who doesnt care about me
I told him I love him
and he told me he loves me too
and i asked why he doesnt think of me
he told me he keeps himself occupied so he doesnt
god, i miss him.
So after we hung up
Rucci called me
and we decided to take a trip to the mall
HOLY crap EVERYONE was there
i bought a new lip ring .. I hate it ..
The ball is humongous
Ugly.
waste of 20 dollars
So i was talking to Chris Lacass and Edwin
and then i saw mikey
and guess who he was with
Tom and Paul..
So i went over to say hi to them
It was a little awkward ..
it felt weird that i was with another guy
and i wasnt aloud to like be normal with tom
He didnt seem to care much.
So we talked for a little bit
and then we left and I met up with B. Zahn, Glenn and J.J.
for like 5 minutes and then we went to the pool hall with Jay O'brien
and Caitlin
it was fun.. then we went to The diner
but caitlin went home.
We were talking about stupid things.
Then on the way home Rucci asked me why i still care about Tom
So i told him the whole story about us
it felt good to talk about it to someone
if he really loved me .. he couldnt be going out with some other girl
and if he really cared nothing he did to keep his time occupied with make him erase me from his thoughts..
Rucci told me maybe he does still love me and is just trying to do anything to get over me, he thinks he'll realize that we belong together
but 4 months has been to long .. he will never realize
things didnt work out for a reason
people dont change unless they want to
theres no point in trying to fix something
that will never work.
i'm tired ..
i guess he never really cared like i thought
I write and then I dont write for a long time.
Well I havent been up to really anything
I've been hanging out with Ryan a lot.
He has turned into my best friend for my break haha.
Last night I called Tom
He got fired from his job
He told me he goes out with Krystal now
and he seemed a little mad that I have been with Ryan
I almost threw up when he told me they go out
I just started to cry
I asked him if he was happy
he told me he is content
I dont get it
He told me its just a layed back relationship and that the other night he could have hung out with her until 12, but he left early and went to Rutgers
.. Well she doesnt know everything I know
so of course she wont care.
I hung up after a while b.c i dont want to cry over someone who doesnt care about me
I told him I love him
and he told me he loves me too
and i asked why he doesnt think of me
he told me he keeps himself occupied so he doesnt
god, i miss him.
So after we hung up
Rucci called me
and we decided to take a trip to the mall
HOLY crap EVERYONE was there
i bought a new lip ring .. I hate it ..
The ball is humongous
Ugly.
waste of 20 dollars
So i was talking to Chris Lacass and Edwin
and then i saw mikey
and guess who he was with
Tom and Paul..
So i went over to say hi to them
It was a little awkward ..
it felt weird that i was with another guy
and i wasnt aloud to like be normal with tom
He didnt seem to care much.
So we talked for a little bit
and then we left and I met up with B. Zahn, Glenn and J.J.
for like 5 minutes and then we went to the pool hall with Jay O'brien
and Caitlin
it was fun.. then we went to The diner
but caitlin went home.
We were talking about stupid things.
Then on the way home Rucci asked me why i still care about Tom
So i told him the whole story about us
it felt good to talk about it to someone
if he really loved me .. he couldnt be going out with some other girl
and if he really cared nothing he did to keep his time occupied with make him erase me from his thoughts..
Rucci told me maybe he does still love me and is just trying to do anything to get over me, he thinks he'll realize that we belong together
but 4 months has been to long .. he will never realize
things didnt work out for a reason
people dont change unless they want to
theres no point in trying to fix something
that will never work.
i'm tired ..
i guess he never really cared like i thought