I'm freaking out in a not good way.
I haven't heard from Nick since the week before fall break. I don't know what is going on. Everything seemed really great the last time we talked but now its been like 3 weeks and I don't know what is going on. He hasn't answered my emails or online messages and I don't have a phone number to call him at because of his getting a new phone system and stuff. I know he went to Philly and I haven't heard from him since. I seriously feel like crying. I'm so worried that he has just decided that he doesn't really care about me after all and that he doesn't want me in his life after all and is just going to ignore all my attempts to contact him. I can't take this. I am so distracted and I can't be right now at this point in the semester, but its like all this school crap doesn't matter because its NICK and I haven't talked to him and he has somehow wormed his way into my heart these past 3 years and its like I can't survive without hearing from him. This not knowing is killing me. seriously.