Don't you get tired of reading this crap?
Let's start things off:
Mentally: Im exhausted.
I can't take it.
Jamie: Everyday....everyyyyydaaayyyyyy. LONG conversations on texts, and sometimes a phone call that lasts FAR too long. BLAH. I think that is why Im sick.
Sammi: Love that kid. June will be super great. Not going to make more out of it, nor am I going to hope, stress, or wonder about what COULD happen. None of that. I have a wonderful friend. If our future is to be different than it presently is, it'll happen.
All other girls: Just get in line. hahaha sounds bad. But seriously, Im tired of "looking". Sticking to my NOT looking attitude. Nor am I just looking for fun. Im not looking for anything PERIOD. If that changes, I'll let you know
Career: FILM....period. I wanna make film, write, act, speak, and all that good shit. I don't believe anyone is a celebrity, so I don't want to be one. I just want to be known for being good at what I do. Whatever I do.
Life: Im getting mine back in order. Save some money. Take a trip to Idaho, drive back home, then drive back to Idaho, and fly back home. In the mean time, spend time with my favorite person in the world. *at this moment in my life*. Work hard..er. Stop letting "the man" bring me down mentally. Im not gonna go down because of some bigot or some over anal fuckhead who knows his position is completely unneeded in the world. Lot's of shit to figure out.
Religion:
Im still learning. I refuse to buy into this "God talks to us" bullshit. Not that I don't believe God speaks to us. I think it is more of a metaphorical way of stating intuition. I think we learn from the world. God/fate speaks to us figuratively. Like when you see on the news "Man shot for being gay" or something, our hearts realize no one should die because of something so minor as homosexuality. Thus, God speaking to us. If you really know the bible, you know that God has never been direct. Only a few, small cases. Shit, he sent an Angel to the birth of his only son. Trust me, God doesn't like to be direct. So when someone says "God told me to do all I can to rid the world of Homosexuals" No, your fear and hate did. You simply justified it by pinning it on God. Blame God. What, we gonna arrest God? I doubt it. Might be kinda hard. Considering he could just fart and SMOTE you out. I refuse to believe these bullshit ideas people put in other's heads. I find no reason for hate. The bible never contratdicts it's self on hate. Hate is evil, wrong, and never justified. Thus, hating any race, religion, gender, or anyone else for anything other than their actions is purely sinful. You will be judged accordingly in accordance to modern Christian/Judiasim belief, assuming you follow that belief, in the end, who the fuck knows. SOOOO that means, the racists who claim God put a curse on "the blacks" *that isn't a made up example, my boss believes the BIBLE says blacks are cursed, and inorder to be saved must become Christian*, anyone who claims Jesus said to "kill the faggots", anyone who says "woman are made from Man, because they are inferior", any of those people are wrong, and will learn so when they die. God, Heaven, and the Holy Spirit are tools for us. To learn, grow, and become better people. Our intended destination is Heaven. Our teacher is God/Jesus. Our means is with the Holy Ghost. Thus, we use God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit to become happy. Where does that leave room for hierarchy, strict conservative guidelines, and hatred? I don't understand how a few words written down by humans years and years ago justifies hatred of another man simply because he is different in 1 way. Yet at the same time, it's wrong for me to kill the mother of the kid next to me at the movie. By that same theory, I should be allowed to kill her. She is raising a shit hole child. With no limits, respect, or understanding of SHUT THE FUCK UP. She, thus is ruining the "moral fabric" of the world. Her poor child raising skills are going to affect my children. I mean, I can't have my future children learning to be a fucking ass from her child. Stop the problem at the source. The bitch must die. Now, according to the justification of Gay bashers can be used to the death of some lady, simply because her child is an ass? Want me to find more ways? "They are ruining moral fabric, our children will learn from their sins". Ok. Fine. Then Im allowed to KILL anyone, or at least make a law taking away THEIR right to live, simply for the benefit of my child. Of course...I could raise my child with the understanding of what is right and wrong, and give them the tools needed to grow and be a good person. Fuck that. Easy road!
Might seem odd, but hey, it makes sense.
"Love your neighbor, be a good person, and admit your guilt" That seemed to be the basic message from Christ. He wanted us to love eachother. He wanted us to be a good person, and he wanted us to admit our sins. When we admit what we did, we are allowing ourselves to be judged, and then in turn allowing God to forgive us. Acoording to most Christians, God forgives us for everything, if we just simply ask. So, when we admit it, and ask to be forgiven, we admit to being human. Our biggest sin of all. Done. We die, knowing we lived right, and go to that "Heaven" thing. Though is it possible "heaven" is a metaphor. I mean, just like "let there be light" metaphor for the Big Bang theory. The bible has a lot of metaphors, which people seem to believe are solid truth. I mean, Adam and Eve. Adam was put under, and God removed a section of his ribs to create Eve. Is it possible, that by Rib, he meant the male penis. Like "Im takin the slong, and creating Eve". Not from Adam, but from the design. Like, he created Adam, and then made Eve, BUT without a "rib". Now, keep in mind the editors of the bible were ULTRA conservatives. Like, you think Bush is bad, oh man, he'd be called a "fucking liberal" by all accounts back then. So the term "penis" might offend. "Hey, lets just say he made Eve out of a rib of man". Considering men ruled the era, admitting Woman are equal to men was NOT easy. nor allowed. It would make sense to think, that maybe these ideas and notions we hold onto are just missunderstood in our current tongue. Be a good person, love your neighbor, and admit your wrongs. SO hard to do? I don't think so. I do it everyday. oh, plus today is my birthday. Jamie Sammi JoAnna Ashley Meredith Katie B Those people have wished me Happy Birthday, in that order so far. ON my bday. Not before.
Mentally: Im exhausted.
I can't take it.
Jamie: Everyday....everyyyyydaaayyyyyy. LONG conversations on texts, and sometimes a phone call that lasts FAR too long. BLAH. I think that is why Im sick.
Sammi: Love that kid. June will be super great. Not going to make more out of it, nor am I going to hope, stress, or wonder about what COULD happen. None of that. I have a wonderful friend. If our future is to be different than it presently is, it'll happen.
All other girls: Just get in line. hahaha sounds bad. But seriously, Im tired of "looking". Sticking to my NOT looking attitude. Nor am I just looking for fun. Im not looking for anything PERIOD. If that changes, I'll let you know
Career: FILM....period. I wanna make film, write, act, speak, and all that good shit. I don't believe anyone is a celebrity, so I don't want to be one. I just want to be known for being good at what I do. Whatever I do.
Life: Im getting mine back in order. Save some money. Take a trip to Idaho, drive back home, then drive back to Idaho, and fly back home. In the mean time, spend time with my favorite person in the world. *at this moment in my life*. Work hard..er. Stop letting "the man" bring me down mentally. Im not gonna go down because of some bigot or some over anal fuckhead who knows his position is completely unneeded in the world. Lot's of shit to figure out.
Religion:
Im still learning. I refuse to buy into this "God talks to us" bullshit. Not that I don't believe God speaks to us. I think it is more of a metaphorical way of stating intuition. I think we learn from the world. God/fate speaks to us figuratively. Like when you see on the news "Man shot for being gay" or something, our hearts realize no one should die because of something so minor as homosexuality. Thus, God speaking to us. If you really know the bible, you know that God has never been direct. Only a few, small cases. Shit, he sent an Angel to the birth of his only son. Trust me, God doesn't like to be direct. So when someone says "God told me to do all I can to rid the world of Homosexuals" No, your fear and hate did. You simply justified it by pinning it on God. Blame God. What, we gonna arrest God? I doubt it. Might be kinda hard. Considering he could just fart and SMOTE you out. I refuse to believe these bullshit ideas people put in other's heads. I find no reason for hate. The bible never contratdicts it's self on hate. Hate is evil, wrong, and never justified. Thus, hating any race, religion, gender, or anyone else for anything other than their actions is purely sinful. You will be judged accordingly in accordance to modern Christian/Judiasim belief, assuming you follow that belief, in the end, who the fuck knows. SOOOO that means, the racists who claim God put a curse on "the blacks" *that isn't a made up example, my boss believes the BIBLE says blacks are cursed, and inorder to be saved must become Christian*, anyone who claims Jesus said to "kill the faggots", anyone who says "woman are made from Man, because they are inferior", any of those people are wrong, and will learn so when they die. God, Heaven, and the Holy Spirit are tools for us. To learn, grow, and become better people. Our intended destination is Heaven. Our teacher is God/Jesus. Our means is with the Holy Ghost. Thus, we use God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit to become happy. Where does that leave room for hierarchy, strict conservative guidelines, and hatred? I don't understand how a few words written down by humans years and years ago justifies hatred of another man simply because he is different in 1 way. Yet at the same time, it's wrong for me to kill the mother of the kid next to me at the movie. By that same theory, I should be allowed to kill her. She is raising a shit hole child. With no limits, respect, or understanding of SHUT THE FUCK UP. She, thus is ruining the "moral fabric" of the world. Her poor child raising skills are going to affect my children. I mean, I can't have my future children learning to be a fucking ass from her child. Stop the problem at the source. The bitch must die. Now, according to the justification of Gay bashers can be used to the death of some lady, simply because her child is an ass? Want me to find more ways? "They are ruining moral fabric, our children will learn from their sins". Ok. Fine. Then Im allowed to KILL anyone, or at least make a law taking away THEIR right to live, simply for the benefit of my child. Of course...I could raise my child with the understanding of what is right and wrong, and give them the tools needed to grow and be a good person. Fuck that. Easy road!
Might seem odd, but hey, it makes sense.
"Love your neighbor, be a good person, and admit your guilt" That seemed to be the basic message from Christ. He wanted us to love eachother. He wanted us to be a good person, and he wanted us to admit our sins. When we admit what we did, we are allowing ourselves to be judged, and then in turn allowing God to forgive us. Acoording to most Christians, God forgives us for everything, if we just simply ask. So, when we admit it, and ask to be forgiven, we admit to being human. Our biggest sin of all. Done. We die, knowing we lived right, and go to that "Heaven" thing. Though is it possible "heaven" is a metaphor. I mean, just like "let there be light" metaphor for the Big Bang theory. The bible has a lot of metaphors, which people seem to believe are solid truth. I mean, Adam and Eve. Adam was put under, and God removed a section of his ribs to create Eve. Is it possible, that by Rib, he meant the male penis. Like "Im takin the slong, and creating Eve". Not from Adam, but from the design. Like, he created Adam, and then made Eve, BUT without a "rib". Now, keep in mind the editors of the bible were ULTRA conservatives. Like, you think Bush is bad, oh man, he'd be called a "fucking liberal" by all accounts back then. So the term "penis" might offend. "Hey, lets just say he made Eve out of a rib of man". Considering men ruled the era, admitting Woman are equal to men was NOT easy. nor allowed. It would make sense to think, that maybe these ideas and notions we hold onto are just missunderstood in our current tongue. Be a good person, love your neighbor, and admit your wrongs. SO hard to do? I don't think so. I do it everyday. oh, plus today is my birthday. Jamie Sammi JoAnna Ashley Meredith Katie B Those people have wished me Happy Birthday, in that order so far. ON my bday. Not before.