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So today we had the funearl. It started off slow. The lady that did my great Uncle Bob's memorial service a month or two ago did my Aunt Jan's today. She is nice, but.......eh. She did alright. A little too slow and old fashion for my taste. My Uncle Ernie got up and spoke. He basically said the perfect "speech". He really covered it all. Then my cousin Tracy (her daughter) got up. I never knew she was adopted. I guess I spent too many years buried in my head phones at family get togethers. She did a good job. Sounded like I expecter her to sound. Then they played a song. It was nice. Around this time Im really thinking about how she's gone. Like I can't look at her and smile. All I can do is remember the times. So I get all teary eyed. then....."someone is going to say a few words, Chuck" HUH! crap. Right when I get a little teared up.
So I got up. Shaking like mad inside. I was shakin inside mostly because I was just kinda hit with some emotion. So I started off. I talked about what she meant. I honestly can't remember what I said too much. When I get the tape I'll listen and possibly post it or something. I just kinda covered what I wanted to. I mentioned the pizza dinners we'd have on Saturdays. I mentioned that her birthday was the day after mine. I also mentioned that she was literally my GREAT Aunt. In more ways than one. I finished up kinda neat. I said "She was a wonderful woman, and...kinda paused, and that's all I can say. Thank You"
My Dad got up next and read a card my grandma Melva (she isn't really my gma, but she is like family to all of my dad's side. So adopted like Grandma). She lives in Wisconsin right now, she moves everyother month. She sent a card to be read. He read it then talked for himself. He mentioned things I forgot. He also got onto something I completely didn't think about. A few years back when we spent nearly 6 months in the hospital with my Grandma, hoping she'd wake up. My Aunt Jan and Uncle Ernie are definately the reason my Grandma Margie is still alive. My Aunt did everything and anything she could to help out my Grandma. He spoke of that, and I really had to hold it in. I know I could cry, but I didn't want to unless he was next to me to consol me. It didn't feel right. He nearly lost it too. It was touching. All 3 of the speechs, spanning 3 generations, My Uncle, Me, and my Dad. We kinda added to the first guys. I mentioned Uncle Ernie's speech, and my Dad mentioned mine. It was nice.
Then the lady read from the bible some more. I tuned out. Not because I didn't care, but hearing about how a book written by man 1000's of years ago is 100% True. Instead I thought about my Aunt and how I loved her a lot.
They played another song, and then my Great Aunt Bert got up and read a poem. Then the typical closing preaching stuff, and then another song. "Old Rugged Cross". My Great Uncle Darrel sung this song at my grandpa Day's funeral. He did an awesome job too. My Dad turned to me during the song, it was on tape of some lady, and he told me "I want this played at my funeral". That is the second time that is happened. A person Im next to tells me they want a song played at theirs. First my Cousin Mark during my Grandpa Gilmore's funeral, tells me he wants Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Green Day, and now this. Haha. I told him he had plenty of time to worry about that.
The Cemetary was normal. No falls, no big deal things. Just usual shit. BEAUTIFUL day. Little chili, but I'll take it over fucking snow or cloudy crap.
Overall it was a wonderful service, that my Aunt would have been proud of. I got complimented many times for my speech.
The luncheon was good. My Aunt Jo and I talked a lot. For us anyway. It was nice. To not feel tension but just a comfortable vibe. I guess my problem is Im too shy around my family. Now that Im more comfortable, just being me, they respond more. Feels good.
Work blew. But it was way more tense than it needed to be. Leann is crazy. Period.
So Im tired, and going to watch South Park. It's like my main vice right now. The main way I detach is to watch South Park. I play stupid games on Ebaumsworld.com too. But I can't do both at the same time too much, simply because of the sound issue.
Mmmmmmmmm Jimmy Eat World
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Kelly Clarkson. I love her song Since You Been Gone. I got a couple songs of hers downloaded. She's really good. I don't care what haters will say, she's fucking great. Plus, she's like the hottest celeb I've seen in many years.
YUM!
VVVV
So I got up. Shaking like mad inside. I was shakin inside mostly because I was just kinda hit with some emotion. So I started off. I talked about what she meant. I honestly can't remember what I said too much. When I get the tape I'll listen and possibly post it or something. I just kinda covered what I wanted to. I mentioned the pizza dinners we'd have on Saturdays. I mentioned that her birthday was the day after mine. I also mentioned that she was literally my GREAT Aunt. In more ways than one. I finished up kinda neat. I said "She was a wonderful woman, and...kinda paused, and that's all I can say. Thank You"
My Dad got up next and read a card my grandma Melva (she isn't really my gma, but she is like family to all of my dad's side. So adopted like Grandma). She lives in Wisconsin right now, she moves everyother month. She sent a card to be read. He read it then talked for himself. He mentioned things I forgot. He also got onto something I completely didn't think about. A few years back when we spent nearly 6 months in the hospital with my Grandma, hoping she'd wake up. My Aunt Jan and Uncle Ernie are definately the reason my Grandma Margie is still alive. My Aunt did everything and anything she could to help out my Grandma. He spoke of that, and I really had to hold it in. I know I could cry, but I didn't want to unless he was next to me to consol me. It didn't feel right. He nearly lost it too. It was touching. All 3 of the speechs, spanning 3 generations, My Uncle, Me, and my Dad. We kinda added to the first guys. I mentioned Uncle Ernie's speech, and my Dad mentioned mine. It was nice.
Then the lady read from the bible some more. I tuned out. Not because I didn't care, but hearing about how a book written by man 1000's of years ago is 100% True. Instead I thought about my Aunt and how I loved her a lot.
They played another song, and then my Great Aunt Bert got up and read a poem. Then the typical closing preaching stuff, and then another song. "Old Rugged Cross". My Great Uncle Darrel sung this song at my grandpa Day's funeral. He did an awesome job too. My Dad turned to me during the song, it was on tape of some lady, and he told me "I want this played at my funeral". That is the second time that is happened. A person Im next to tells me they want a song played at theirs. First my Cousin Mark during my Grandpa Gilmore's funeral, tells me he wants Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) by Green Day, and now this. Haha. I told him he had plenty of time to worry about that.
The Cemetary was normal. No falls, no big deal things. Just usual shit. BEAUTIFUL day. Little chili, but I'll take it over fucking snow or cloudy crap.
Overall it was a wonderful service, that my Aunt would have been proud of. I got complimented many times for my speech.
The luncheon was good. My Aunt Jo and I talked a lot. For us anyway. It was nice. To not feel tension but just a comfortable vibe. I guess my problem is Im too shy around my family. Now that Im more comfortable, just being me, they respond more. Feels good.
Work blew. But it was way more tense than it needed to be. Leann is crazy. Period.
So Im tired, and going to watch South Park. It's like my main vice right now. The main way I detach is to watch South Park. I play stupid games on Ebaumsworld.com too. But I can't do both at the same time too much, simply because of the sound issue.
Mmmmmmmmm Jimmy Eat World
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! Kelly Clarkson. I love her song Since You Been Gone. I got a couple songs of hers downloaded. She's really good. I don't care what haters will say, she's fucking great. Plus, she's like the hottest celeb I've seen in many years.
YUM!
VVVV