This is silly. In fact, it borders on pathetic. I don't like feeling this way.

Honestly, I don't know what I think I'm doing. I could back out in a second; it would be the easy way out, and no one would blame me, but it's the last thing I want to do.

(What do you honestly believe is going to happen?)

I don't know. Do I ever?

Feelings are…confusing. And frustrating. My thoughts have this thing they do where they refuse to turn off, even when I try to make them, and I’m not sure what to do about that.

Also, I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow. Terrific.

No matter how sleep-deprived I am, I always seem to wake up before seven. Even on the East Coast.

I don't mind too much; it's just...worthy of note.

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But it gives me too much time to think.

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Thinking sucks.

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Nur, Naheed, and Serena are three of my oldest friends. I've known Nur since I was three and told her secrets back when I didn't talk to most people; Serena is the one person I know who always manages to make me feel my presence is wanted; and Naheed is just a fascinating person. I could spend hours just explaining everything I know about them and ( Read more... )

So, yesterday I remembered to write what made me happy the day before, but not that day.

This, in part, is because there was nothing to write. It wasn't a day of misery; it just...wasn't a day of joy. But I was certainly flush with triumph upon finishing my AP Psych homework.

Today, I am happy because I have a low amount of homework by Newport ( Read more... )

If I seem unusually bitter, it’s because a couple of these are to my parents. Everything else is to people around my age, most of whom don’t read my LiveJournal (some of whom do.) One or two refer to more than one person.

( You're better off not knowing. )

Quoth a release form I am required to sign:

I understand in signing this statement that certain elements of this program are active, physically demanding and may consist of risks that could result in physical or emotional injury, paralysis, damage to myself, to property or to third-parties or even death. I understand that such risks simply cannot be ( Read more... )

I don't generally notice people's looks, so it literally took me until today to figure this out:

I know some truly, dazzlingly pretty people who complain about their looks.

And yet I have never met an unnattractive person (or even a pretty person who happened to be overweight) who has said a thing in regards to their appearance.

The obvious ( Read more... )