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Random thoughts
I need to start updating this thing more.
I had probably the best sex the other night.
I'm tanning right now and I miss my friend Celeste. (She died a couple of months ago) I will update more about what happened soon.
Just a random update on my thoughts at the moment.
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Seems like I'll never be the right person for anyone. I guess I'm just not good enough. Either that or I just pick the worst possible people to be interested in. I'm hoping it's the latter, although that sucks as well because I'll constantly end up in situations feeling like the former. Maybe I'm just supposed to be alone and watch everyone around ( Read more... ) -
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Still no fucking better. I'm starting to have really bad thoughts, but I don't think I would ever actually act on them. I feel like garbage. Literal garbage. Thrown away. I've felt like this by almost every single person in my god damned life. What am I supposed to do? Running out of options. Wish I could just RUN away. -
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I thought things would be easier by now. I went for a few days without crying, but I cried this morning because I had a dream about him. We were fighting and I had the urge to kill him or something. Something else that has been weird is that I picture him in memories that he was never apart of. I see him with me when I'm a child, playing in the ( Read more... ) -
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I don't feel any better. I know it's only been a couple of days since I posted, but for fucks sake, I am so sick of feeling this awful. I just want to die. call me dramatic but my whole life has been nothing but a big fucking mess of fuck ups and let downs. I want out of my skin. I want out. I want fucking out. I have hardly anyone to turn to. ( Read more... ) -
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when you lose someone you love, you lose apart of yourself. I know it sounds cheesy, but that is exactly what it feels like. You feel this weird void that is seemingly impossible to fill up. I've experience this before, but not to this degree. I just spent 4 years with someone who loved me so much, who wanted to make things work, but I was the ( Read more... ) -
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I had a sudden urge to get back on my Livejournal and update. I read a few of the entries that I wrote over the past few years and I CANNOT believe how quick time really moves. Here's a brief summary on how life has been going ( Read more... ) -
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I don't know what to write.
I guess I'm feeling a little emotionless right now, or maybe I'm too emotional to pull anything out of the wreckage.
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This year has gone by fast. I can't believe how much i have managed to accomplish and this amount of time, and it's exhilerating ( Read more... ) -
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I haven't updated this thing in 7 weeks! Crazy ( Read more... )