At times like these.
It is at times like these when I wonder about my life, where it is going and does it have purpose. I have spent the better half of two weeks worried about my daughters surgery, and the last two days thankful that is is ok and doing fine. It is just moments like this that I find my self introspective and trying to see if my life has meaning. Don't get me wrong, I know how much I mean to my family and the few friends that I can call friends. I just that when I look at all these great and talented people that I follow on the internet, and compare what they do to what I have been able to accomplish, I feel like such a small and insignificant person. I feel that I don't have anything to offer the world. I have a great deal inside me, things I would like to do and accomplish but my motivation to do it is lacking. I also suffer from that killer of creativeness, will my stuff be good enough. I'll never know if I don't finish something, and I find my lack of confidence is a great hindrance. I just don't know if I can turn this around and become the type of person I envision, the type of person I admire and follow in podcasts, podiobooks, on twitter or through their blogs. I hope that I can. I hope for a lot of things. I know that I will have to earn my way to be like that and commit myself to that life. I hope that I have the strength of conviction, and power of creativity that these great people have.