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My onced stressed out state of mind is coming to an ease. I'm so light. The only thing left to "worry" about is my physics book that I can't find. Haha, there's so much I was suppose to have turned in already. Oh well.
The priorly(is that a word?) spoken 'filtration process' has been a success. I ended up not being the only one filtering. I've seen it throughout this year. If you're not quite sure what I'm talking about, don't worry about it. Just know that I'm happy. It's for
the best.
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I don't hate people - some I just don't care for. Even some since my freshman year(eek!).
But they're not to be completely dismissed. I almost thank them; they are the ones that led me to find the people I love in my life. The only people I need. The only people I want.
I hope that everybody will find their people. How sad, for somebody to go through all of highschool, and not know the ones they could count on (for sure). Maybe I'm wrong.
But some people just aren't worth the energy. The negativity and selfishness recieved from some and the insincereity I get from others haven't made me any better of a person in the past two years. I can honestly dismiss some people without hesitation for the following reason: If I've found within myself and another to withold a friendship that contributes to myself morally, while containing the comical and respectable aspects that should come along with a friendship, why do I have reason to put forth so much effort with anything less? This doesn't mean I'm totally calling off all frienships that I don't share all of that with, but - actually maybe it does. Isn't that what a friend is? Perhaps everybody else are mere aquaintences. I appreciate every single person that has come into my life, I do. They've all contributed in some way. I'm happy I've realized everything I have; I wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't.
Though this year has been the worst academically, it has been the best for my heart. I've realized that my family is very important to me, and I've realized how much I love/care for them (even more in the past few weeks). I think I've taken them for granted. There are too many things that I let slip by with them, and it's a problem. I need to spend more time with them. I love my family. They represent where I come from and where I need to be. There's nothing transparent about them.
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I hope you're all happy.
The priorly(is that a word?) spoken 'filtration process' has been a success. I ended up not being the only one filtering. I've seen it throughout this year. If you're not quite sure what I'm talking about, don't worry about it. Just know that I'm happy. It's for
the best.
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I don't hate people - some I just don't care for. Even some since my freshman year(eek!).
But they're not to be completely dismissed. I almost thank them; they are the ones that led me to find the people I love in my life. The only people I need. The only people I want.
I hope that everybody will find their people. How sad, for somebody to go through all of highschool, and not know the ones they could count on (for sure). Maybe I'm wrong.
But some people just aren't worth the energy. The negativity and selfishness recieved from some and the insincereity I get from others haven't made me any better of a person in the past two years. I can honestly dismiss some people without hesitation for the following reason: If I've found within myself and another to withold a friendship that contributes to myself morally, while containing the comical and respectable aspects that should come along with a friendship, why do I have reason to put forth so much effort with anything less? This doesn't mean I'm totally calling off all frienships that I don't share all of that with, but - actually maybe it does. Isn't that what a friend is? Perhaps everybody else are mere aquaintences. I appreciate every single person that has come into my life, I do. They've all contributed in some way. I'm happy I've realized everything I have; I wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't.
Though this year has been the worst academically, it has been the best for my heart. I've realized that my family is very important to me, and I've realized how much I love/care for them (even more in the past few weeks). I think I've taken them for granted. There are too many things that I let slip by with them, and it's a problem. I need to spend more time with them. I love my family. They represent where I come from and where I need to be. There's nothing transparent about them.
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I hope you're all happy.