ever
feel like life is a giant shot in the dark?
sort of like you're walking around your house, looking for your damn keys, and they are nowhere to be found?
ever feel like you're never going to find your keys again, because you're so consumed by this permanent darkness?
That is, oddly enough, how I feel today.
I drove to my brother's wrestling match
and on the way there
seriously contemplated
driving my car
off some sort of drop.
Just ending my life.
Or just injuring myself horribly to where someone would actually fucking care.
Because I'm pretty sure that the people I want to care the most,
don't.
I know, it's horrible to think things like that,
but I really don't know what's wrong.
but other than this internal debacle,
I've had a good day.
It's not over yet.
I'm still fighting it.
sort of like you're walking around your house, looking for your damn keys, and they are nowhere to be found?
ever feel like you're never going to find your keys again, because you're so consumed by this permanent darkness?
That is, oddly enough, how I feel today.
I drove to my brother's wrestling match
and on the way there
seriously contemplated
driving my car
off some sort of drop.
Just ending my life.
Or just injuring myself horribly to where someone would actually fucking care.
Because I'm pretty sure that the people I want to care the most,
don't.
I know, it's horrible to think things like that,
but I really don't know what's wrong.
but other than this internal debacle,
I've had a good day.
It's not over yet.
I'm still fighting it.