Secret world of Ca

[gracefullyme]

I shower nearly every single night, just to warm up.

I spend too much extra time cleaning my kitchen at night, when I should be sleeping

I like to cook, and I am very good at it, but if it's just me, I'll eat things such as rice broccoli and salsa.

I absolutely love baking, it's like my comfort, but I never eat much of what I bake.

I read every single night in bed. The same book. Even if just a page. I read wherever I happen to open up to.

I sleep right in the middle of the bed.

If I have trouble falling asleep I will-starting with my feet-work on mentally relaxing my body.

I think about/obsess about/plan running and pick out races I would want to do. I get very excited about training for them. I daydream about running.

I leave movies on in the background to keep me company, even if I've seen it a hundred times and am not even in the same room.

I spend a lot of time writing in my head and when I finally get a chance to put it on paper, it is never the same, and never as good.

I worry too much. About everything. I have made worry a full time job. I probably have ulcers. I worry about stupid stuff, important stuff, and I let it consume me sometimes. I never just 'let it go'.

I do and say things a lot of the time that I wish I wouldn't. I let the worst side of myself get the best of me, and I hate it.

I am completely and utterly terrified of the dark, if I think about it.

I make a better correspondent than a conversationalist, for the most part.

I still make a pretty good conversationalist, when I'm comfortable.

My list of dream jobs includes: Columnist, novelist, National Geographic Photographer, Search and Rescue, track coach, elite runner.

I long to be the subject of photo shoots.