(no subject)
- had the worse night ever, it took me nearly 3 hours to try to fall asleep last night. i couldn't keep my eyes open or subject them to light, being that i didn't get my sleep the night before. kyle was sleeping on my couch and diep was on my computer, i figured that i could either sleep in the car or in my closet. i was hoping that i could just rest my eyes in my closet. get some thinking done, and pray to god, make a few phone calls. but after everything was all said and done, i tried to go to sleep. o_O i kept tossing and turning like i mad man. i thinks i need a tv in my closet to set the mood and stuff. the good part was that i never realize how cozy my closet is. i might have to work a little hard to make it more cozy.
- i realize that i might get alot of the goals and resolutions that i've set for myself in 2005 done. it's scary. i have so many things lined up. it's already the 3rd month of the year, and im crawling to start anything. but i have a feeling about this year. something good is gonna happen. then i'll balance itself out later.
- i've been having an internal stuggle. no matter what i do, no matter what i say, it won't go away. it's to the point where basic logic won't even hold any grounds. sometimes i do make myself realize an epiphany, that shouls make sense to most sane people, and then i get better. that usually doesn't last more than an hour.
- you know how when you have a notepad and pen next to your bed, so that you could jolt down your dreams? well sometimes i used my cellphone. either on voice memo or i call myslef. well a couple of nights ago, i called myself. i left this message. and for the life of me, i couldn't not understand what the hell im saying. mind you it was more like mubbling, but still, i should be able to make out one word. after listening to it a couple of times, i gave up trying to figure out what i was trying to say.
i love how the chinese zodiac, really reflects who i am:
Water Dog:
Positives: Reliable, Persistent, Devoted, Resourceful, Unselfish, Honest
Negatives: Introvert, Nosy, Anxious, Pessimist, Cynic, Moody
- i realize that i might get alot of the goals and resolutions that i've set for myself in 2005 done. it's scary. i have so many things lined up. it's already the 3rd month of the year, and im crawling to start anything. but i have a feeling about this year. something good is gonna happen. then i'll balance itself out later.
- i've been having an internal stuggle. no matter what i do, no matter what i say, it won't go away. it's to the point where basic logic won't even hold any grounds. sometimes i do make myself realize an epiphany, that shouls make sense to most sane people, and then i get better. that usually doesn't last more than an hour.
- you know how when you have a notepad and pen next to your bed, so that you could jolt down your dreams? well sometimes i used my cellphone. either on voice memo or i call myslef. well a couple of nights ago, i called myself. i left this message. and for the life of me, i couldn't not understand what the hell im saying. mind you it was more like mubbling, but still, i should be able to make out one word. after listening to it a couple of times, i gave up trying to figure out what i was trying to say.
i love how the chinese zodiac, really reflects who i am:
Water Dog:
Positives: Reliable, Persistent, Devoted, Resourceful, Unselfish, Honest
Negatives: Introvert, Nosy, Anxious, Pessimist, Cynic, Moody