I am tired.
Just another day in my silly life. I dont know why i am still writing here. Maybe hoping that writing what is going on with me is gonna help me out. Then again it may not. But either way, whats the real harm?
I sit staring into the night sky. Its cold, and the moon is up. I am tired. I listen to people talk there BS about life as I listen, and I am still tired. I look to brighter things, and an adventurous future... and i am still tired. Its kinda like wanting to go to sleep but you are just too tired to sleep. I am still looking into the night sky, and when the clouds part I look deep into the starry sky and wonder. "Why am I so tired? Why do I even question it? And why do I bother?" There are just times when it does not pay to wake up in the morning. And so i am tired. Not because I cannot sleep. Not because I have a newborn daughter. I am tired because of all of this and so much more. Some days it just does not pay to get out of bed. I am hurting and I cannot make the slow throbbing pain subside. Every step I take, every time I move, or think, it throbs. And the pain hurts more. And I am still tired.
So what can I do about it? Not a hell of allot other than to either ride it out or wallow in it, or fight back. But I am still tired, and that is the one consistant in all of this. "yea I know I have only been repeating myself like a copier.:P" But all in all i am wondering what I am going to do with myself and all of this in my life. Maybe go out and get hammered. I know it does not help out the problem. But it might help me out in the short term. And maybe the hangover will help out things into perspective. But I either should go to bed or something to that effect. Maybe I will continue my stories. And then again Iroi, and Kyo are still in turmoil. And maybe their story has ended. Then again...
Happy hunting all, and may life smile upon you and your endeavors.
I sit staring into the night sky. Its cold, and the moon is up. I am tired. I listen to people talk there BS about life as I listen, and I am still tired. I look to brighter things, and an adventurous future... and i am still tired. Its kinda like wanting to go to sleep but you are just too tired to sleep. I am still looking into the night sky, and when the clouds part I look deep into the starry sky and wonder. "Why am I so tired? Why do I even question it? And why do I bother?" There are just times when it does not pay to wake up in the morning. And so i am tired. Not because I cannot sleep. Not because I have a newborn daughter. I am tired because of all of this and so much more. Some days it just does not pay to get out of bed. I am hurting and I cannot make the slow throbbing pain subside. Every step I take, every time I move, or think, it throbs. And the pain hurts more. And I am still tired.
So what can I do about it? Not a hell of allot other than to either ride it out or wallow in it, or fight back. But I am still tired, and that is the one consistant in all of this. "yea I know I have only been repeating myself like a copier.:P" But all in all i am wondering what I am going to do with myself and all of this in my life. Maybe go out and get hammered. I know it does not help out the problem. But it might help me out in the short term. And maybe the hangover will help out things into perspective. But I either should go to bed or something to that effect. Maybe I will continue my stories. And then again Iroi, and Kyo are still in turmoil. And maybe their story has ended. Then again...
Happy hunting all, and may life smile upon you and your endeavors.