Bored~

[gouya_killer]

Ask me 6 questions. Any six, no matter how personal, private or random, I have to answer them honestly. Then in turn, you have to post this message in your own journal.

Do your worst~ There's nothing I'll refuse to answer~ ♥

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[antipun]

1. How much do you miss Okinawa?
2. What's your favourite painting of yours that you've ever done?
3. How long does it take you to get into those leather pants of yours?
4. Shinto or Buddhism?
5. Is there anything in the last year that has happened that you have regrets about?
6. ...Do you really think you're that unimportant to me?

[gouya_killer]

1. As much as you miss Chiba. A dull ache that never goes away completely.
2. Honestly? One I did for Hiroshi's birthday of the entire gang...it's some of the best work I've done on a variety of levels.
3. It depends on how you count it...probably 5 minutes for the actual putting on the pants, but since I tend to powder my legs to make the process that much easier...probably closer to 8 or 9.
4. Neither, actually. It's one of the Ryukyuan belief structures, Sosensuuhai...it's indigenous, a blend of animism and shaminish, with a healthy dose of ancestor worship tossed in for flavor~ Though I suppose my particular practice has been colored by Shinto practices over the years....
5. ...yes, there is. Though my biggest regrets haven't come from this year, I do have regrets.
6. There...are times that...yes, I do think that....

[antipun]

4. I've heard of that. Never met someone who believed in it though.
6. ...Probably my faukt with bad decisions but... Rin... there are few people who are as important to me as the friends I grew up with, especially Kouji and Davide but... you're easily one of them.

[gouya_killer]

4. You've met several of us, though, who believe in that, or a variant thereof. Hiroshi's as good as a shaman, himself, and his grandfather definitely is one.
6. It...Bane...I just felt...I don't know....used, at the end of the day. Like the conveinent excuse, like someone easy to blow off and set aside. Certianly not like a friend worthy of any regard.It wasn't a good feeling, and it hurt.... I've gotten enough crap from people I don't care about...I don't need to feel this way from someone I do.

[antipun]

4. That's... seriously cool. o.o
6. I'm sorry, Rin. I'm really, really sorry. I.. I'm not sure if there's anything else I can say... But... I want to make it up to you...Is there any way at all that I can?

[gouya_killer]

I...don't know, Bane. And if I did...I don't think I'd hand you the answer on a silver platter. When I fuck up with my friends, I have to work for the healing...so you get the same principle applied to you. Because if it does matter....

[antipun]

...I thought you'd say that. I'll find a way... I have to... Because it really does matter.

[bujutsu_goth]

Hiroshi's as good as a shaman, himself, and his grandfather definitely is one.

...
...Still got a couple more years at least to go before I become "official" with that...Apparently the old man doesn't think I'm ready yet.....Something about letting the spirits rule me too much......I wasn't completely paying attention last time we talked about it, since it pissed me off...

[OOC: Tanjirou told Chinen that because of his major daddy issues. And until he gets over them, he's refusing to give him full shaman status. Unfortunately that may be something that Chinen will hold onto for some time. Depends upon how long it takes for father and son to finally meet again. >>;]

[gouya_killer]

Still think you're as good as one, even if it isn't all official and tied up with a neat bow, you know~

[bujutsu_goth]

...Honestly it wouldn't bother me so much if it weren't for the fact that *he* doesn't see me as ready yet...

[gouya_killer]

Maybe...it's him trying to protect you, in a way...I mean, we've both seem how badly things can go wrong when they do, so.....

[bujutsu_goth]

Yeah, well, it's not like he's completely gotten over losing Obaa-san, and that was 13 years ago, so I think he's being hypocritical and really doesn't have any place to judge me...

[gouya_killer]

That right there I think is a good part of the reason why Nan keeps turning him down. She understands how important she was to him, but Nan doesn't want to spend the rest of her life being compared to a memory and coming up wanting.

[bujutsu_goth]

Well, she was the love of his life, so I can understand why it's stuck with him...Though I do hate that it's affected things for him and Nan...They're both forced to stay lonely because of it...

[gouya_killer]

Is he really lonely, though, with memories that powerful? Nan...just knows she can't compare, not even from her first marriage and those memories...and let's face it. It's not like their marriage was anything wonderful. She deserves better.

[bujutsu_goth]

Apparently so...I once tried to ask him about it, and he said "more than you can believe", but then got really strange with me and changed the subject when I asked him why...So I'm not sure what that was all about, but it may be part of the problem