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Just back in St Louis after a brief trip to see the parents. I think I've reached the point where home isn't where my parents are any more. I'll still call it home because what else am I supposed to call it? But I'm more comfortable in my own place and city now, even though no one's here. I miss the Uni people a lot, and it's not that I don't want to go back to C-U. It's just that it doesn't feel like home anymore. My home is the condo, which is fantastic since I'll be here for a loooong time. It's just kinda weird and sad and frighteningly adult-feeling.
On another note, my birthday's next week. I don't really like birthdays. Because of the summer birthday, none of my friends were around for them so I never got to like the party stuff. But I hate the pressure that birthdays put on. They're supposed to be fantastic amounts of fun for everyone, and they rarely are. Additionally, I hate it when people feel obligated to do anything for me, which I think the traditional birthday dinner does. Same goes for going out - I don't want people to feel like they should buy me drinks; that's just annoying. I feel like I should plan something but anything I want to happen will almost definitely be not as good as what I'd like to happen.
On another note, I got a new computer! In fact, I'm writing on it now. I really like the tablet pc thing, if only because I can use the pen like a mouse without having to carry around a mouse.
On another note, my birthday's next week. I don't really like birthdays. Because of the summer birthday, none of my friends were around for them so I never got to like the party stuff. But I hate the pressure that birthdays put on. They're supposed to be fantastic amounts of fun for everyone, and they rarely are. Additionally, I hate it when people feel obligated to do anything for me, which I think the traditional birthday dinner does. Same goes for going out - I don't want people to feel like they should buy me drinks; that's just annoying. I feel like I should plan something but anything I want to happen will almost definitely be not as good as what I'd like to happen.
On another note, I got a new computer! In fact, I'm writing on it now. I really like the tablet pc thing, if only because I can use the pen like a mouse without having to carry around a mouse.