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okay so update on the weekend, really bad in more ways than one, so friday night i went to the semi, really boring and lonely and interminable. after that ended i went over adam's house, I was having a really bad night, everything i touched seemed to get screwed up, i was deemed a danger to myself and others, i'm so distracted mentally lately i can't do anything right. so, we played some videogames and then started to watch "the usual suspects", but both fell asleep in the middle. so we got up at like 9:30 saturday morning and played some more videogames, i was less hazardous. then we got ready and went to rich's party. the party was fun i guess, i was pretty broken still. showed off my lack of skill at pool, talked to people and whatnot. after the party i brought adam home, got my stuff from his house, and went home. didn't do really anything last night. lots of reflecting more brokenness. so i reluctantly got out of bed this morning, ambled over to the computer and saw something that just made me lose it. i just broke down, went back to my bed and just lay there for another hour and a half crying/beating the wall/hating the world, yeah... eventually got up again, and tried to figure things out, nothing really worked out. so the rest of the day i just worked on my homework/played videogames, my dad's friends came over for a little while, then my aunt and uncle came over to celebrate st. patty's day dinner. yeah, sorry 'bout the depressing vague entry, not that anyone's likely to read it anyway. k i'm off to go wallow/brood some more ttyl.