Chrysalis Part 1
Doc said that it would help if I wrote down what happened, so here it goes.
I started hanging out this summer at Equinox, the goth night at one of the clubs downtown in Pilly. The music's good, the crowd doesn't have too many posers, and most importantly, IDs are not checked at the door, only at the bar. My friends there were really the only ones who understood how suck-ass the world can be, and how stupid most people can be having the wool pulled down over their eyes all the time. Every saturday night, I would loose myself in the music and dance till closing to the dark sounds.
It was about then when I started getting the dreams. In some of them I would find myself running through the woods, or sitting around a fire to the sounds of drums being plaid. In others, I had a round sheild, short sword, and there was a charging army with spears and swords running at us. I would still feel the blood on my hands as I awoke, but it quickly faded as I woke up. Most of the dreams were, to put it in the terms of those films we had to watch in middle school, 'special adult dreams'. And oh man were they good. Some were romantic with dancing and such, but most were the stuff porn movies are made of; hair, skin, lips, skin on skin. Sometimes there was one, sometimes two, and often full blown orgies. There were girls and guys, but it didn't seem to matter, for it all felt so good. I awoke to find myself disappointingly alone.
During the day whenever my mind wandered off, which was quite often, I would find myself thinking of those dreams. Other things started creeping into my waking mind. I would see something out of the corner of my eye, or while walking past, but when I turned to take a better look, it was gone. One evening I could have sworn I saw a demon or something, it had pointy teeth, and blood red hair, but when I looked again, it was just some overly pierced skater punk. Then there was the giant spider. I kept seeing it, and it's eyes up in the rafters of Equinox, but no one else could see it. They just said that it was just my imagination or paranoia running away on me, or that I was trying to pull something on them.
Things continued on ok for a while, until Halloween.
I started hanging out this summer at Equinox, the goth night at one of the clubs downtown in Pilly. The music's good, the crowd doesn't have too many posers, and most importantly, IDs are not checked at the door, only at the bar. My friends there were really the only ones who understood how suck-ass the world can be, and how stupid most people can be having the wool pulled down over their eyes all the time. Every saturday night, I would loose myself in the music and dance till closing to the dark sounds.
It was about then when I started getting the dreams. In some of them I would find myself running through the woods, or sitting around a fire to the sounds of drums being plaid. In others, I had a round sheild, short sword, and there was a charging army with spears and swords running at us. I would still feel the blood on my hands as I awoke, but it quickly faded as I woke up. Most of the dreams were, to put it in the terms of those films we had to watch in middle school, 'special adult dreams'. And oh man were they good. Some were romantic with dancing and such, but most were the stuff porn movies are made of; hair, skin, lips, skin on skin. Sometimes there was one, sometimes two, and often full blown orgies. There were girls and guys, but it didn't seem to matter, for it all felt so good. I awoke to find myself disappointingly alone.
During the day whenever my mind wandered off, which was quite often, I would find myself thinking of those dreams. Other things started creeping into my waking mind. I would see something out of the corner of my eye, or while walking past, but when I turned to take a better look, it was gone. One evening I could have sworn I saw a demon or something, it had pointy teeth, and blood red hair, but when I looked again, it was just some overly pierced skater punk. Then there was the giant spider. I kept seeing it, and it's eyes up in the rafters of Equinox, but no one else could see it. They just said that it was just my imagination or paranoia running away on me, or that I was trying to pull something on them.
Things continued on ok for a while, until Halloween.