ennui and empty wishes
Last Saturday was Children's Day... and I actually got presents from my parents and my boyfriend. I wonder what that says about me. XD
I am liking the Anais headmould more and more... it's such a pretty headmould! (Case in point: this, this and this) I can't stop looking for Anais pictures. :X (By the way, if you have any recs for sites with Anais girls/boys, please let me know! :D) Honestly, when I first decided on an Anais, it was kinda impulsive? As in, I really liked the Anais model Chez Masha and a few other Korean dressmakers used. But I wasn't 100% sure I was really going to like Anais since I'd only seen pictures of some amazing customs, but not in real life. (And somehow, at that time, I had decided that Madoka was my favourite female doll.) But now, I'm really glad I got Anais anyway. hehe.
It's kinda weird. I used to totally swear off female dolls (hence Shin) until somehow someday, I had an epiphany and decided my second doll shall be female. So I began to search for my ideal female doll, looking through lots and lots of female doll pictures... and now, I'm kinda addicted to female doll pictures. I feel like I don't really have as much interest looking through pictures of male dolls anymore. XD;
Even though sometimes I rather wish in retrospect that I hadn't gone for the internship during my holidays... I wouldn't have been able to get Midori if I didn't work, so... I guess I've no regrets. After all, I've also learnt a lot of valuable lessons during my internship!
Just wish I didn't (and don't) feel so lackadaisical after I came back from the three-month stint. Sigh.
Somehow, I also think it might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. :\
I think I'm very unhappy of late .___.
I just feel super messed up and screwed in general.
Like I'm going nowhere in whatever I'm doing, not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and not being able to do what I feel like doing.
And of course, I'm also wishing there's no school, blah blah..ie, the usual complaints.
Sigh, focus focus focus. Must do constructive work. Must not 玩物丧志. :(
Took a day off today, since one of my tutors went for an overseas assignment, and I don't feel like attending the other lecture. Shall take another day off tomorrow. :X
I am liking the Anais headmould more and more... it's such a pretty headmould! (Case in point: this, this and this) I can't stop looking for Anais pictures. :X (By the way, if you have any recs for sites with Anais girls/boys, please let me know! :D) Honestly, when I first decided on an Anais, it was kinda impulsive? As in, I really liked the Anais model Chez Masha and a few other Korean dressmakers used. But I wasn't 100% sure I was really going to like Anais since I'd only seen pictures of some amazing customs, but not in real life. (And somehow, at that time, I had decided that Madoka was my favourite female doll.) But now, I'm really glad I got Anais anyway. hehe.
It's kinda weird. I used to totally swear off female dolls (hence Shin) until somehow someday, I had an epiphany and decided my second doll shall be female. So I began to search for my ideal female doll, looking through lots and lots of female doll pictures... and now, I'm kinda addicted to female doll pictures. I feel like I don't really have as much interest looking through pictures of male dolls anymore. XD;
Even though sometimes I rather wish in retrospect that I hadn't gone for the internship during my holidays... I wouldn't have been able to get Midori if I didn't work, so... I guess I've no regrets. After all, I've also learnt a lot of valuable lessons during my internship!
Just wish I didn't (and don't) feel so lackadaisical after I came back from the three-month stint. Sigh.
Somehow, I also think it might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. :\
I think I'm very unhappy of late .___.
I just feel super messed up and screwed in general.
Like I'm going nowhere in whatever I'm doing, not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and not being able to do what I feel like doing.
And of course, I'm also wishing there's no school, blah blah..ie, the usual complaints.
Sigh, focus focus focus. Must do constructive work. Must not 玩物丧志. :(
Took a day off today, since one of my tutors went for an overseas assignment, and I don't feel like attending the other lecture. Shall take another day off tomorrow. :X