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After scraping through my house for six fucking hours of endless hell, arguing with my mom, and listening to her scream at me how I need to eat something.. I forced myself to choke down a skippy snack bar.. mmmmm peanut buttery wax.. thats all it tasted like to me.. wax.. i can barely taste anything.. let alone breathe.. I refuse to let her take me to the doctors.. I'm done being picked n prodded at.. they can't fucking fix me.. if they could they would have along time ago..
I ate the pizza she ordered none the less and am drinking coffee and chain smoking. HA There's something I shouldn't be doing since I can't breathe very well.. smoking.. but personally I couldn't be forced to give a rats ass.. the past week has taken its toll on me.. I'm absolutely fucking exhausted.. after trying to clean up my house repeatedly.. people running in and out...
i don't even know where to begin so i'm just gonna go dig through the music on my computer.. take a big ol drink of this coffee.. and begin my bitching since I havent updated for awhile..
I ate the pizza she ordered none the less and am drinking coffee and chain smoking. HA There's something I shouldn't be doing since I can't breathe very well.. smoking.. but personally I couldn't be forced to give a rats ass.. the past week has taken its toll on me.. I'm absolutely fucking exhausted.. after trying to clean up my house repeatedly.. people running in and out...
i don't even know where to begin so i'm just gonna go dig through the music on my computer.. take a big ol drink of this coffee.. and begin my bitching since I havent updated for awhile..