Mar 15, 2005 14:21
Hello everyone,
Yes, it is true, she broke up with me because God told her to do so. When she told me this, I became devistated.
Hurt in my heart, the woman that I loved and cherished left me because she had a conviction from God saying that I am not good enought for her and that I am nothing.
I have been the fool for far to long. We constantly breaking up because of her religion, which is christianity.
She says that we are unequaly yoked because she knows more about the bible than me. Why does my love compete with me so much about a book? When I asked her can she think for herself, she said no, God does her thinking.
It's blind innocence. Being afraid to face reality and using God as an excuse for everything. I believe in many things, but I would never use God as an excuse to break up with anyone. To me, she is just afraid to live life and to accept reality. Her fantasy world is that her mother pays her rent, clothing, bills, food, college, and car payments and she lives in her own apartment, rent free.
Her mother said that I am shit because I work and go to school on the first day that I meet her. She wanted to know why I loved her daughter so much and her daughter is 24, two years older than myself.
After I told her, she just stood there and said that it was not enought for her. These people are christain and yet, they judged me.
To me, religion and money go hand in hand. If you a christian and you got money, you everybodys friend, but if you earn your living and do what you can to survive, most people think that you nothing because you don't have any money to offer to them. How sad, and yet, God loves this.
To me, I personally believe that my love is full of shit. To say that God told her what to do is like me saying that God told me to quit my job because I am providing for myself and my family.
Well, either way, I am alone, while my love, somewhere in Norfolk, listening to whatever her friends and family tell her. I feel sad for her, and yet, I am hated by God.
Robert.