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I'm in my memories again...
2005. The same season and weather. 4 blue roses. His wondering about who lets me walk alone in dark places at such a late time. I was ok then, didn't have the -13 and operations' results. Every Tuesday attended aerobics classes. Wrote articles most people used to like. After aerobics I ran out of the sports club with a stopping heart - somewhere there He is waiting!!! And it was true. He was waiting for me, called if he was late, Said he's never let me walk along that dark passage alone. We went home together, used all spare minutes to meet and talk. And then... 2006. Another wave of love, my illness. Operations. 1st one. Arguments. 2nd one. My vacation 700 km away, lots of money spent on phone calls and phone arguments. I was suspicious about... Then everything went on like in a horror movie.
2008. Same season and weather. Darkness, It's cold outside, but this time I have fever. I walk along that passage, a man is "watering" a brick wall, does his trousers up and follows me. Another one, completely drunk, goes out of the bushes. I run to the opposite side of the road, run home as fast as possible. I'm dreaming of sb to bring back my 2005 fairy-tale... Of sb to meet me after University. Sb accepting me the way I am, asexual, childfree, ugly and without talents. Sb whose brains would not be eaten by whores...
Tomorrow will come. A copy of today.
2005. The same season and weather. 4 blue roses. His wondering about who lets me walk alone in dark places at such a late time. I was ok then, didn't have the -13 and operations' results. Every Tuesday attended aerobics classes. Wrote articles most people used to like. After aerobics I ran out of the sports club with a stopping heart - somewhere there He is waiting!!! And it was true. He was waiting for me, called if he was late, Said he's never let me walk along that dark passage alone. We went home together, used all spare minutes to meet and talk. And then... 2006. Another wave of love, my illness. Operations. 1st one. Arguments. 2nd one. My vacation 700 km away, lots of money spent on phone calls and phone arguments. I was suspicious about... Then everything went on like in a horror movie.
2008. Same season and weather. Darkness, It's cold outside, but this time I have fever. I walk along that passage, a man is "watering" a brick wall, does his trousers up and follows me. Another one, completely drunk, goes out of the bushes. I run to the opposite side of the road, run home as fast as possible. I'm dreaming of sb to bring back my 2005 fairy-tale... Of sb to meet me after University. Sb accepting me the way I am, asexual, childfree, ugly and without talents. Sb whose brains would not be eaten by whores...
Tomorrow will come. A copy of today.