here i go again. or once more with feeling.

[gothic_feline]

well well well. back again. new job new life new every thing but feelings. sigh.i am engaged with no set date. dont get me wrong i love jewels i do. but she is an alpha female type and i am a Dom off a leash. we butt heads often and she knows i can be emtional so she strikes where it can hurt and the frustrating part is i dont thinks shes meaning to do it but instinct for her has kicked in. i have tenents in my house and this is the first month rent is due from them and i only hope they can make it. id hate to have to evict friends.
i talked to dawn last night and she makes me realize how i have settled. am i sentamental or just mental.. i still care for her like any one i have ever said the L word to. talking to dawn makes my world go away. and for a brief time i am the old flirty and romantic guy i was, just wanting a song in my heart and a love for my arms. dawn knows me as well as i know my self and feels something is wrong.. i feel it to i just dont know what till then i cant fix it..

enough rant for now more latter.