Hopeless...
Just when i think things might, just might get better...they just drop way down...farther then they already were...my mom and grama went to the pound to see the van and to see if it was driveable or not...lets just say we dont have a vehicle nemore...my mom smashed the living shit out of it...the engine is pushed back the windows are all blown in and its just a mess...its not fixable...its never gunna work again...so now we dont have a vehicle...the thing that sux about it is we were still paying for it...so now were paying for something thats smashed up in the junk yard...and as u probably know my family doesnt have that much money...its hard to pay the payments as it is...but now its pointless...were paying for pretty much nothing...good job mom...uve really done it this time...never thougt u would go this low...just think...it might not have been a pole...that could have been a person standing on the street...it could have been another car...u might not have only smashed the van up...u could have smashed someone else up...they might not have been here nemore...then wat would you do?...uve caused me more suffering then i can handle...i cant wait till the day i leave that house...leave all the terrible memories behind...cant take it nemore...living in fear all the time that something's gunna happen...ur gunna try and kill urself...my dads gunna show up at the door i could go on...but im not going to...im sure u get my point...but when u decide to smarten up...is when ill live a normal...well...almost normal life...but it will be alot better for me and for you...its gunna take alot to get back my trust and respect...u say ur gunna stop...but how am i supposed to believe that?...when uve been saying it throughout the years?...dont expect me to believe it...cause i dont...ur gunna have to prove it to me...the day u take a sip of alcohol is the day im gone...i dont know where ill go cause of my skool i cant go to my sisters cause i couldnt get to skool...but i WILL find a place to stay...and thats all i have to say...so bye